Magic Is Ice

The Air of Hougang

2011-06-07T22:53:00.004+08:00

My Pa laminated this poem which he found off somewhere...

Thought to post it here as remembrance in view of the recent GE2011 despite this poem being written 5 years back.

This poem was inspired by PM Goh Chok Tong's desire to "smell the air of Hougang" before deciding the polling date.

Credits : Written by Patrick Low, 18 December 1996

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The air of Hougang is still free,

You don't have to pay a fee.

Though I dread the day may come,

When to breathe, you need a COE.

The air of Hougang is still pure,

It will definitely help to cure.

The political ills that the PAP,

Inflict on those who wants to be free.

The air of Hougang is still salty,

Not from the sweat of tycoons's parties.

But from the brow of honest labour,

To the high and mighty, we owe no favours.

The air of Hougang is still heady,

We will continue to be steady.

There are things that money can't buy,

Degrade our vote? Don't you try!

The air of Hougang is still sweet,

The Workers' Party is no easy meat.

You can come and test the waters,

But please do not expect any quarters.

The air of Hougang afterall,

Is the same as that in Punggol.

If there's "ter sai" in the air,

You will smell it anywhere.

But if there's freedom in the air,

Vote for it, and we will be there.

下一站，幸福

2011-01-30T18:38:00.003+08:00

就因为是两个人做的事情
有人牵着
去那里都可以
有人回应着
说什么也可以
因为那时两个人的事情
就算再无聊
它都变得好幸福

-- from .. " 下一站，幸福 "

The 7 Principles of Leadership Qualities

2010-10-21T23:18:00.002+08:00

There are leaders, & there are leaders.
What sets you apart?

True leaders have a set of principles that takes them from success to success.
A way of doing.
A way of seeing.
Rarer still is the sense of joy they bring to everything they do.
Others may not understand these values.
That's why it takes one to know one.

1) Accept no compromise
Get exacting standards, then exceed them.

2) Follow your instincts
Make decisions an extension of your instinct.

3) Dare to innovate
Pioneer technologies that make chance happen.

4) Focus on the big picture
Know when to take the back seat.

5) Assemble the strongest team
Delegate the details to a handpicked team.

6) Exercise your privileges
Enjoy the privileges that come with the position.

7) Wield power responsibly
Make leadership a substainable venture.

海派甜心 Quotes

2010-10-19T00:49:00.003+08:00

一切是如此的不可思议
如果不是尝过苦涩的滋味
我想我不会发现
你早已悄悄地在我心中
注进了一口甜蜜
这是触动的感觉

Everything is so unfathomable
If it weren't for having tasted the bitterness
I believe I would never discover
That you had already so quietly
Poured a bit of sweetness into my heart
These are moving sentiments

四十八分钟

2010-10-11T23:06:00.018+08:00

其实人身就好像这四十八分钟一样
不到最后终场
什么事情都有可能会发生
只是每一个人
终场的时间不一样
最后的结果也不一样
重要的是你要懂得
在时间有限的人生当中
找到一个
值得你全心全意透露的梦想

Life resembles the analogy of 48 minutes
Anything can happen till the very last minute
However, there is a different ending for everyone
Therefore, the final result will also be different
What's important is that you can identify
A dream that you can invest into, wholeheartedly
& you will know that
You have not wasted your life away 。。。

Remembering Garfield

2010-10-02T16:28:00.002+08:00

Born : 20 April 1994

Died : 02 October 2010

In loving memory of Garfield, who has gone away to join his family & friends to a more beautiful place.

Garfield, WE LOVE YOU

1W - SHA CGO

2010-07-07T23:09:00.003+08:00

I wanna vent my anger but,
I have to keep my cool.
I am pek chek but,
there is nothing I can do.
I am sad to hear of certain things,
I wonder if anyone has considered my feelings?

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Sighs, duno wad my boss wants?

Today come over and question me how much refund we are getting for our Shanghai cargo when we do exchange? Upon learning the refund amount, he tells me to just throw the cargo as 1 way and obtain the highest refund there is.

Den I try to 'salvage' the situation by telling him that Shanghai is value cargo, can exchange for other cargoes and stuff. Den he said, just throw 1 way. Which got me thinking, if he had forgotten the last time we requested the high refund from our agent to which the consignee lodged a complaint to our loading port agent of the exorbitant destination charges they have to pay at destination?

The whole scenario is always the case. The higher refund or lower freight that you pay at loading port, its only the consignee who suffers in the ulitmate end...

& by throwing out Shanghai cargo as 1 way, 简直是白白把货送给别人，却不能一举两得。

& if boss is saying that HKG consol can easily get cargoes since we have t/s base, has he not noticed that my HKG boxes hasnt been that regular of late? I am having difficulties finding cargoes as it is, with the extreme drop in t/s cargoes in the port and 每个人都抱住货 as if they are gold lor. & indeed, cargoes nowadays 简直是宝。每有货的人，才算不了什么。

Forget it, I also dun wanna say anything nor argue. No strength left... Lately not much motivation / satisfaction in doing my work well. Been going through daily work as a must to finish up. Working but heart's not in it.

I need a long break, but when's the break coming?

The trip planned from July to mid August to now? End August... I'm not surprised if it will be finalised to September instead. Afterall, no 1 has mentioned anything about meeting up to discuss nor going down to book for the package...

Not forgetting that it is so damn hard for me to take leave. Jess saw for herself, my hp rang non-stop. If you hadn't known, you wud have tot it's some kinda 'hot-line'. Damn hot lor... & boss ever told me before not to take leave on fridays, it being closing say. Den mondays for me are docs & files-closing days. Tuesdays to thursdays are left with cargo finding days. Tell me la, how to go apply leave? Unless I'm away on holiday, outta the country, there's no way I can go on long leave with peace of mind lor...

My colleagues today even say that me having so many days of leave is a total waste on me and that I sud distribute out the remaining to them for fully utilisation. I also wanna utilise my leave ma ... But am I given a chance? Take on any day of the week also got problem, how to clear like that sia?

Haiz, anyways , dun feel like caring too much at the moment...

I'm going with the 心态 that if can open the consolidation box, 就开。开不到，就算了吧。。。反正，老板都不在乎，我干吗去管那么多？？

& 1 other thing that upsetted me today?

Sighs, it's so damn sad to learn that someone has your cargo and didn't throw it out to you. Even thou that someone told me before that will throw all the DG HKG cargoes to my side... In the end? 还不是一场空。。。Even thou I knew that it was happening, since both of them asked me so similar questions at the same time, & there can never be so coincidental things that will happen at the same time. I wud wish to be kept in the dark about it. Not knowing is always the most fortunate thing that cud happen to anyone... Even thou I know that it's most likely due to their management issue, however, still... Words that have been said can never be retracted back, just like a vase can never be fully mended again, once it has been broken into pieces...

Overall, a not very good day that has happened to me, and esp. for this week.

I have been slogging my guts out and yet, what do I get?

Am also worried if this will affect my performance appraisal at the end of this month? I seriously hope not lor! Imagine all your hard work for the past year gone down the drain?

我不甘心。
我不甘愿。
我不服气。
我很失望。

Hugging is good for U...

2010-05-10T22:48:00.002+08:00

Found this article in 8days this week...

I wan a hug~

1. Hugs equal love. Love is good.
Hugs increase levels of oxytocin - also known as the love hormone - a neurotransmitter released in especially large doses during childbirth to induce bonding

2. Hugs reduce blood pressure.
Wanna reduce your loved one's chances of heart disease? Hug them more.

3. Hugs reduce stress.
Levels of cortisol, or the stress hormone, were found to be lower after a good ol' hug, especially for women.

4. Bear hug, not air-hug.
A light touch alerts the nervous system, but a deep pressure hug calms and relaxes. It can also stimulate nerve endings throughout the body and increase circulation.

5. Dun let go too early.
A hug is a powerful way to communicate your caring for another person, as it can feel great and greatly improve one's mood. If someone hugs you, they may want a long, loving hug (maybe they are upset / down), so just go along with it and hug them until they let go or loosen their hold.

Now I wonder, where's my hug? Long and overdue liaoz lor...

Fake-O

2010-04-27T23:54:00.003+08:00

See below the msn conversation between me and 1 of my poly classmate:-

Sharon says : hey gal
Ger says : yes
Sharon says : you still rem how to study economics?
Ger says : nope
Sharon says : die liao
Sharon says : i have entroll into uni
Sharon says : for marketing then one module is econ
Sharon says : any people that you knw abt this subject?
Ger says : robert?
Sharon says : i was thinking abt it as well
Sharon says : he also study uni now
Ger says : yar
Sharon says : how abt you?
Ger says : wrkg
Sharon says : not intending to study?
Ger says : dun tink so
Sharon says : how is sarita?
Ger says : ha no idea
Ger says : no contact
Sharon says : really
Sharon says : i thought you all close
Ger says : she got married
Ger says : den slowly inch away from us all
Sharon says : ya i heard
Sharon says : why?
Ger says : no idea?
Sharon says : i heard that her hubby is quite ok one
Sharon says : so when are you all free to come out for coffee
Ger says : see wen the rest free?
Ger says : u organize?
Sharon says : ok
Sharon says : i will let you know
Sharon says : who you still contact with
Ger says : only robert
Sharon says : i see
Sharon says : then will arrange one day
Ger says : ok can
Sharon says : take care
Ger says : u2
Sharon says : hey , be happy ar
Ger says : ha ha .. I am ar

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Really like what my other poly fren, Robert always says, this gal, Sharon only contacts us in times of need.

& making contact is 1 thing, the lst thing she says is always about the things she need our help in, never before asking about how are we, that kinda greetings…

I was actually thinking, she has enrolled into uni and is facing problem for the subject - econs, 关我什么屁事啊！

& you can see from my responses to her questions also, is either 1 word only or really very short. I just can’t be bothered anymore la.

Sick & tired of this kinda people lor..

Get outta my sight pls…

I always said also. Dun make assumptions, cuz they can be really misleading..

Yes, our group used to be really close with 1 another, some of us la, but not all. And it also does not mean that friendship holds forever, esp when some ple chooses to walk away from it, after supposedly getting married.

After 某某人 once said not to undergo arranged marriages, but I guess the scary tot of being left on the shelf proves too much for her to handle that she got married to that guy within duno how long of knowing each other?

Anyways, back to topic, there’s also the part where she started again, see when all of us are free to come out for coffee. Give me a break, we have always been free, always been ready to come out for coffee. But who is the 1 who has not been able to meet the rest of us? Who has been the 1 to cancel on us at the last min? Its always her lor… Always talking 废话, rubbish nia.

Feeling like she is such a fake-O

Dun come and bother me la… Go live in your little fake world, I’m not interested in hearing about anything from you lor… Boo~

Really Nice Quotes found 。。。

2010-03-28T12:43:00.002+08:00

By my eyes I met you...
By my soft hands I touched you...
By my lips I kissed you...
By my heart I loved you
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i know i never tell you how much i love you or tell you how much i care
but if you look inside my heart you will always be there
i think about you every day even though you may not notice
and again im sorry for never telling you how much i love you
and how much i care
but its only because words cannot explain
they just cant describe it
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For it was not into my ear you whispered,
but into my heart.
It was not my lips you kissed,
but my soul.
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In real love you want the other person's good.
In romantic love you want the other person
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Love is being stupid together
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Missing you is my hobby,
caring for you is my job,
making you happy is my duty,
and loving you is my life.
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Everything in life is temporary,
because everything changes.
That's why it takes great courage to love,
knowing it might end anytime
but having the faith it will last forever
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It's not who you are to the world,
it's who you are to me.
It's not how many times I say I love you...
it's how much I really do
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A hug for you means I need you.
A kiss for you means I love you.
A call for you means I'm missing you
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Life has taught us that love does not consist in gazing at each other
but in looking outward together in the same direction
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Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength,
while loving someone deeply gives you courage
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If I could dream at all it would be about you.
And I'm not ashamed of it.
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Love is like a butterfly.
It goes where it pleases and it pleases where it goes
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The only reason you can die for someone
is because you don't want to live without that person
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To love someone out of loneliness will only bring you more loneliness
as if you have never loved anyone, not even yourself
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Someone asked me,
"Why do you keep loving someone who doesn't love you back?
There are tons of fish in the water.
" I simply replied, "Just because it's also water, would you drink from the sea?"
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It's amazing how someone can break your heart
and you can still love them with all the little pieces!
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One of the hardest things in life
is having words in your heart that you can't utter
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Crazy as it happens...
You keep going right back to one thing you need to walk away from
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you gave me strength to carry on
and that's when i hear you say
i promise you i'm always there
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You know you love someone
when all you want for that person is happiness,
though you are not part of it
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What do you do
when the only person that can stop you from crying
is the one who's making you cry?
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Don't worry about people in the past.
There is a reason why they did not make it into your future.....
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Love deeply and passionately.
You might get hurt but it's the only way to live life completely
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It's better to break your heart
seeing the one you love happy with someone else
rather than seeing her/him unhappy while staying with you
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It's hard when u don't know what caused your sadness,
but it's even harder when you know what makes u happy
yet you can't do anything to have it
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The worst way to miss someone
is to be sitting beside her/him
certain that you can never have her/him
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Love is not very far,
it's just that sometimes,
you tend to look in a distance
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Leaving someone behind means you only want the best for her/him,
even if it means swallowing the sad reality that,
the best just isn't you
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Love makes the time pass.
Time makes love pass
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When you've found a reason to walk away, never look back...
Just keep walking.
It's better to get lost moving on
than to get stuck and stranded broken
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We can't gain if we can't let go.
There's no love without tears,
there's no happiness without sacrifice,
and there's no forever without goodbyes
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Love is...
giving someone the power to break your heart,
but trusting her/him not to
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Of all goodbyes, the kind that which hurt the most
was the one your ears never heard of,
yet your heart knew it's already been said
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Sometimes you have to put walls around you;
not to keep people out,
but to see who cares enough to break them down just to be with you
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I may never get to see you as often as I like.
I may not get to hold you in my arms all through the night.
But deep in my heart I truly know,
you're the one that I LOVE, and can NEVER let go
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if you love until it hurts, there can be no more hurt, only more love
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No matter how crazy and funny the scenes around you are,
they are useless without the person you want to laugh with
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You can close your eyes to things you don't want to see,
but you can't close your heart to the things you don't want to feel
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We must understand that love leaves for a reason, but never without a lesson
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Falling in love is not finding the perfect person.
It's learning to love an imperfect person perfectly
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You can’t make someone love you,
all you can do is be someone who can be loved,
the rest is up to the person to realize your worth
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Love is just a word until you find someone who will give its definition
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坏人

2010-03-27T01:08:00.001+08:00

突然觉得。。。

我是一个坏人。。。

好坏的一个人。。。

大家请远离我吧。。。

不要和坏人交往。。。

好不容易。。。

2010-03-24T00:55:00.007+08:00

好不容易从黑暗的马桶爬出来，
又好像要再跌进去。

最近发生了太多太多事，
但我却一句也没什么说出。

累。好累。
不知何时才能看到太阳？

心情开始变化，
是否可让我有返回的余地？

好吧，就这样决定了，
这个星期就去海边散步吧。。。

一个人，去看海，吹吹风，
一个人，就一个人吧。。。

~ Story Of The Year ~

2010-03-20T15:01:00.010+08:00

15 March 2010 - Monday

It happened on a Monday evening, I think after 6 or around that timing...

Qi suddenly msn me ... See below our msn conversation for your reference:-

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Qi says: i treat u as a fren but if u dun take it the same way too i got nothing to say, but from the way u answer me simply can reflect ur own personal character.
Ger says: den u go to hell lo
Ger says: if u duno hw to reflect on ur own actions
Ger says: and instead over here criticing ple
Ger says: den u have a problem with ur own character / personality
Qi says: it dun matter to me at all,is how u show ur own attitude
Ger says: so dun come and blame on ple
Ger says: if u wanna pt finger
Ger says: tink of urself
Ger says: and u will noe why me / clare treat u tis way
Qi says: if u think u r ok n ur attitude just go ahead..
Ger says: well watever, i dun like to tok to u
Qi says: fine, me n clare has nothing to do with u
Qi says: anyway up to u
Ger says: sori hor
Ger says: in case u duno
Ger says: clare also wan to have nothing to do with u
Ger says: why do u tink me and clare are ignoring u totally?
Ger says: duh~
Qi says: u two simply childish
Ger says: ha now we are the ones childish
Ger says: wah
Qi says: mind me no wonder u both still single
Qi says: bye
Ger says: i have never seen a more childish fellow dan u
Ger says: and hey
Ger says: im attach fyi
Qi says: good luck
Ger says: go luck to u and ur new beau
Ger says: i sud say
Qi says: no worry
Qi says: i m not u
Ger says: i also not u
Ger says: go to hell la
Ger says: offline so fast
Ger says: sot
Ger says: coward
Ger says: fight lost den disappear so fast

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From Tuesday onwards, I no longer see Qi online my msn. I can therefore conclude that she has eliminated me off her list, to which I am super glad~

To quote from so many famous people or even the commoners, or even more recently, from Jess's FB, a true friend says the things that you dun wanna hear..

Now, how true is that? & most importantly, is whether you can hear the truth behind that sentence or understand the meaning of it...

So many a times, had tried telling to Qi in a subtle way, since knowing her for so many years that she doesnt take criticsim / kindness / any forms of comments kindly, therefore can just drop hints, yet she not only does not appreciate it but bites us back in the end.

Come to think about it, how many times had she bitten our heads off? How many times had she gone on to portray herself as the VICTIM? & the rest of us as the 坏人?

It has always been her signature, her MO, to show to the world that she is an all forgiving, and very magnanimous person. Nothing could put her down, nor upset her... YET, picturing the rest of us as guilty, petty, rude and unreasonable...

Come on, give me a break!

Sidetrack a bit... From what I heard before from a source, her ex bf, Alex broke off with her simply becuz she was too childish. Den again, I can't blame him nor Qi. Afterall, Qi is the only child in the family, unlike the rest of us... She does not have to share her stuff with her siblings, she basically, can I say, that she has no chance to interact with anyone else in the family other than her parents? & being the only child, her parents probably just can shower all their attention onto her, thereby resulting in the Qi we know today...

Anyways, back to topic, I wasn't having a very good time past 2 weeks, been rather upset and all, & when I saw her opening line which was really so mean and rude, I snapped. I vented on her.. I had no other choice... By not replying to her msn or reverting her sms or comments on FB, 我已经算挺好的，becuz there is no use in saying too much to a person like her.. I always end up being the bad-man and she the victim, the innocent party...

So many a times, she msn me, but I didnt response... It was until recently that she got more 大胆 in her msn till she wud say stuff like, I seem dao, never reply her... Again, like hello? My msn clearly reflects I am on busy mode! Further, when someone seriously dun reply you, repeatedly, it can only mean 1 thing, that, that someone either dun wanna have anything to do with you, or is angry with you... For me, it is becuz I dun wanna have anything to do with her anymore, due to so many incidents that happened in the past...

算了，都已经成为往事，何必再提呢？
况且，也已经把很多 incidents 给忘了。

Yet, Qi dun agree so... 原来在她眼中，我是一个又小气又 unreasonable 的一个人。。。From another source, she had gone on to babble about our argument to and said stuff such as me and her used to have some minor arguements in the past to which I have not let go and even shared them with Clare, to which caused all of us to lose the friendship... She tinks that I still take them to heart...

Wah lau, I got so petty 1 meh? 我不是没有给她机会啊，只是她有珍惜吗？ I am also tired and can be tired lor.. When you blow all your chances away, how much patience do you think a normal human being can have and how much more nonsence do you think a human being can tolerate? Therfore, I rather shake off this frenship I have with Qi, bring it to a close and have nothing to do with her, my life will be so much better and the world is a much beautiful place to live in too!

To talk about Qi, there is so much to write about... So many never-ending stories to which most of them, I had already forgotten about...

But, there are a few that has not been erased from my memory yet, cuz they are the more recent ones that happened...

Sidetrack again, as the chinese saying goes, 要恨一个人，是很累的一件事。为何浪费你的 energy 去恨呢？不值得啊。。。而且自己更累。。。

So, anyways, some of the incidents:-

1. Qi sms me ask if I know of any good chinese sinseh to intro? I didn't reply, as I said, no reply = no interaction with her = 没有不开心的事情就会发生。 Later again the same week, she sms me and ok, I replied say duno.. Den she ask how come I didnt reply her sms the lst time round, so I just said I didnt receive anything from her.. Den duno how come this sms session turned into another arguement.. Last I can recall was I retorted back to something rather mean that she said, quite sarcastic and the whole thing ended up again in flames...

=> Haiz, you see la, got reply and no reply also the same thing mah... Still ended up in 'tragedy'...

2. Xmas 2008 - We had chocolate at Max Brenner that year.. Me & Clare were organisers that year again, I remember, and it was sorta also the last time we organised something... So anyways, we had invited Qi the lst time round but later changed our mind to invite her due to something she has said? I really forgot liaoz la, about what that she said becuz 2 years ago lei.. Like I said, I am not 1 to bear grudges for long, remember so much unhappy stuff for wad sia? So den I smsed back to Qi to tell her that the mit up is called off due to conflicting schedules with the rest of the gals and she said something mean like its not the first time, stuff like this...

=> There is always bound to be something for her to comment on la...

3. 2009 - Birthday gift for Min

Clare & Bing had shared a birthday gift for Min. There was this 1 day me and Clare were at HG mall and Qi saw the both of us together.. A few days later, Qi somehow contacted me and told me off that how come all of us shared a birthday gift for Min but didn't included her share... I was flabbergasted! What has this gotta do with me? I'm not involved in the sharing in the first place lor, and just becuz you saw me and Clare together that day at HG mall doesnt mean that we were there to share a gift! I have always said, dun make assumptions, cuz they can be quite misleading, since you duno the truth at all, unless you ask of course... So anyhow, 我无缘无故被扯进去。。。Somehow later, Qi went to sms Clare about it since she didn't get a definite answer from me, saying things like next time if wanna get Min a gift, can contact her also... At least the next time, contact and ask if ok to include her share or not...

This left a very bewildered me and Clare, afterall, we know all along how Qi has treated Min, not the very best form and yet, here she is saying it is our fault (干嘛又把我扯进区呵)!!! that her share was not included that kinda thing? Who are you trying to kid??? & since when did Qi get to be so 'chummy' with Min in the lst place? Machiam a crocodile shedding false tears ...

There are many other instances to which Qi was real mean and rude, but I really dun remember anymore.. Hell~ I dun even remember what kinda minor arguments I had with her in the past to make me distance myself away from her..

All I know is she pushed her buttons too far, & I cud not take it, therefore, it resulted in the way I treated her...

Oh oh oh~ Does anyone ever noticed? Qi will always say something like "Dun mind me, or dun be offended" before she babbles off? Before she shoot her mouth over something really OFFENSIVE?? Let's just say she is a very frank person, but does it give her the right to run down a person that badly? No! Even if anyone of us were to wanna say something really forthright, of cuz, we wud adopt the same approach, but what comes out later from our mouth is really something mild yet straight to the point, and not like hers, straight, offensive, and really mean AND rude!

This is simply not the way la... Come on lor..

& I duno if also anyone of you noticed... Whenever she feels she cannot win an arguement, she will quickly end the conversation by doing the disappearing act... What does it show? U can't accept? U are afraid of losing? When people pinpoint her mistake to her, she feels we are 针对她。 She feels she has been treated unfairly and that she is the only correct party.. What she says is never wrong, she is the angel and we? We are the devils...

算了吧。。。 As they say, wireless can never pass thru walls, it will just bounce off from it.. Therefore, there is no need to 计较 with a person like her, there is no need to be upset over with a person like her, and there is no need to bear grudges with a person like her, cuz she is simply too childish~

Correct me if I am wrong thou, but I am not the only 1 who thinks that she is the childish person around here...

Going back to my msn conversation with her that fateful Monday, I am truly amazed at the way she can use all sortsa excuses to fend off a person. A real "Tai-Chi" master indeed...

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Qi says: u two simply childish
Qi says: mind me no wonder u both still single
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Quote from Clare, us being single can also be used as a reason for her to attack and shoot us upon? Wow! I can't believe either, and truly thanks to dear Clare for pinpointing this out... Haha..

I really wonder who is the real childish person around here, among us... I honestly wonder also, who really has an attitude problem? Not me, not Clare, not anyone either, but her...

Its not that me and Clare wanna ignore her completely, just that there is no use saying anything to a person like her and the only best way out is to ignore her since she dun take comments kindly...

I have been kind so far, cuz actually I was planning to use the below sentence against her opening line that Monday... "Duno which family let out their crazy dog to have it yelping at me now"...

你若要做初一，我也可以做十五的，是我要不要而已。。。

Apparently, I sud have just said that line, wad for let her off so easily since she hasn been kind, rite? Anyways, its past and there is no use dwelling over it...

Our friendship has come to an end, and I am really glad, which means 她再也不会来烦我了。。。

Learnt also from another source to which was never revealed to me her blog address, not that I care that after our msn arguement on Monday, Qi had wrote in her blog that she is really happy to eliminate 2 people off her list, friends of whom she has known over 10 years and bottomline being that, does long term friendship last forever?

Friendship does last, but it also depends on how you take care of it, how you treasure your friends, how you treat them and how you look at it...

Qi also mentioned in her blog that who cares? As long as she is happy, with the ones she is hanging around with now, her beau, her frens and her family. Some people dun treasure friendship, and this is life, people come, people go...

This goes to show that she has never tot herself to be the 1 with a problem... Again, she thinks she is always right.. She is just concerned for herself, and does what she thinks is right...

I felt perhaps this cud be due to her being the only child, and her upbringing.. When parents dote on their kids too much and gave in to their whims, this is the kinda child you wud be fostering up to... I pity her at times, I do... Becuz she hasn grown up, and is revealing to the world her childishness.. I have since let go, and all I can feel for her is nothing but pity...

Another quote from her blog saying that she quote from her friend, "If someone wants to be your friend, they will be. Otherwise, they will just find all kinds of fault with you and come up with all sortsa lame excuses, simple as that.."

This just goes to show how shallow her thinking / mind is... Den again, the company she has been hanging around / mixing with, leaves much to be desired for... I'm not surprise... A bunch of kids, what do you expect?

把她当作是小孩子吧，就不会把她放在眼里，何必跟一个小孩子计较呢？

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A note to Bing; If you are reading this, sorry to say, Me & Clare have broken all ties / friendship with Qi already. We dun mind to face her, afterall, we have got nothing to hide.

From the way this issue has been spiralling since I forgot when, it will bound to end up this way...

Who am I?

2010-03-17T23:06:00.003+08:00

Have been feeling quite down and out of sorts lately..

Was listening to my mp3 this morning and this song came along and was filled with emotions..

They say a picture paints a thousand words... As of now, the lyrics of this song paints my mind...

Christina Aguilera - Reflection

Look at me
You may think you see
Who I really am
But you'll never know me
Every day, is as if I play apart
Now I see
If I wear a mask
I can fool the world
But I can not fool
My heart

Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me'
When will my Reflection show
Who I am inside'

I am now
In a world where I have to
Hide my heart
And what I believe in
But somehow
I will show the world
What's inside my heart
And be loved for who I am

Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me'
Why is my reflection
Someone I don't know'

Must I pretend that i'm
Someone else for all time'

When will my reflection show
Who I am inside'

There's a heart that must
Be free to fly
That burns with a need
To know the reason why
Why must we all conceal
What we think
How we feel
Must there be a secret me
I'm forced to hide'
I won't pretend that i'm
Someone else
For all time
When will my reflections show
Who I am inside'

When will my reflections show
Who I am inside'

Disguises??

2010-03-15T21:49:00.004+08:00

Pisces
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Emotional, sensitive & vulnerable, Pisceans lack a hard shell & their defence against the world is to wear disguises. These people are skilled in adapting to different situations & concealing their true feelings. They can be excellent artists, but they are also self-sacrificing, wanting to find a role ...with greater meaning. They are attracted to charitable work & are easily exploited...
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Above is a description from 8 Days of Pisces...

Somehow, reading the part about 'defence agst the world is to wear disguises', I find its soooo me... & also the part about concealing their true feelings? Ya... Also very me again...

Disguises?? Concealing??

I do that All E Time~

& it gets tiring ...

Results 。。。

2010-03-02T11:24:00.003+08:00

Yesterday did my scope liaoz...

Woke up at 6am in the morning, bathed and got ready by 6.15am.. A feat, considering me having done everything in 15 mins! Lolz~

Waited for my mama before making way down to hail a cab. Waited like 10 mins? Was getting impatient and worried that if no cab, jia lats...

Heng God heard our prayers and a cab appeared! Got in and told the cab uncle destination : Mt. Avernia Hospital.

Finally reach there in like 15 mins time? Traffic was smooth, in the wee hours of the morning, cheap fares, costing just 6 bucks.

Went in to register first lor, by then was around 6.45am? After registration, the nurse took me up to level 4 for the day surgery room...

Was told to change into their attire, den sit down and wait for my turn. Waited for what seems like eternity before another nurse came along and took my weight la, checked my name and IC correct or not la, den told me my 'surgery' starts at 9am and I will be directed to the room at 8.30 lor.. Ok, waiting continues...

Finally 8.30 liaoz, a potter came over to bring me to where im supposed to be... A nurse came out and asked me some qns, qns which I was asked earlier, its ok, just repeat my answers nia lor.. Den I was told to wait a while more, not long after, another nurse came out and asked me the same repeated set of qns, repeated my answers again lor.. Omg, why was I being asked the same qns over and over again? I dun understand.

Nvm, finally time for me to go into the room... Again, a needle poke to the vien at my wrist there? Pain sia~ Cuz there no meat mah.. Haha.. Then they also kiap my right index finger with a duno what you call it, not painful la that 1.

Den another nurse came by and spray some medicine into my mouth, forgot she say its for wad.. Den she came to me with another sprayer later on and say its to numb my throat cuz they are going to insert a cam down from my mouth ma.. The thing numb my throat instantly sia, and I got it twice! After that, my doc asked me to bite on this round thing and the nurse administered the jab and I fell asleep liaoz..

I can say the whole process was not that scary la, as I tot it wud be. The only thing difficult is I had to take the solutions to clear my bowel and boy~ that was 超级难喝 lor! Even thou I took the pill they gave me on Sun to prevent vomitting, I still vomitted anyways, 2x somemore lor. Yucks~

The whole process took nearly an hour to complete and my mum told me I was wheeled back to the day surgery room, till I wake up at forgot the time, cuz didnt wear my watch yesterday...

Checked myself out and btw, guess my whole medical bill for just half a day at the hospital? Hospitalisation fees along with doc operation fee totals to 1.7K. Heng claimed from my Medisave to the amount of 1.5K. Balance of 200+ I pay lor.. Such a hefty amount, its no wonder as the slogan in SG goes: Can die in SG but cannot fall sick!

Made my way back to my doc's clinic who showed me the test results and said my intestines were a mess inside, mangled up and all and she un-mangled them for me and pump those air out of me at the end of the procedure. She also took some tissues for further testing becuz some parts in me were swollen, leading to some infection lor. No wonder previously I kana the milk poisoning time, my urine testing detected protein in it. That's why the nurse at the A&E side said there may be some infection within me which cud lead to such results cuz I told them I just had a full body checkup last yr and all was in order lor. So the results may be transient, as in checked the last time was fine, this time kana some infection or wad so results positive and the next time I checked, its negative again. So ya, was very glad that basically, my urine sample is ok!

Now waiting to go back doc next Mon to see the result of the tissue test. Hope nothing is wrong and everything is fine! *Prays to the God Almightly for my good health!!!

No one understands 。。。

2010-02-28T00:05:00.001+08:00

Monday going for my scope liaoz.

Sun nite from 6pm onwards, gotta prep for L.S Ops.

Thursday went to drop off my urine sample at Mt.A lab for further testing.

Hope my medical report, along with my urine sample turns out alright. That, my health and system is in order. I couldn't ask for anything more. This is also my birthday wish, for this year...

But it seems that no1 understands this fact.

My family, and also dear tot I am afraid of the process of the scope. True, it scares me, but nothing scares me more, than its results.

I'm sacred, to death...

*Prays to the gods and all al-mighty, that my health is in order and all tests turn out to be A-OK...

only TIME is capable of understanding LOVE

2010-02-27T23:42:00.002+08:00

Once upon a time, there is an island where all the feelings lived:

1. Happiness
2. Sadness
3. Knowledge, & all the others, including
4. Love

However, 1 day it was announced that the island would sink, so all feelings prepared their boats and left.

LOVE was the only 1 who stayed.

LOVE wanted to stay until it started to sink.

When LOVE was almost sinking, she decided to ask for help.

Richness was passing by LOVE in a beautiful boat.

LOVE said, "Richness, can you take me with you?"

Richness answered, "No, I can't, there are a lot of gold & silver in my boat, there's no space for you here."

LOVE decided to ask vanity for help who was also passing by. "Vanity, please help me!"

"I can't help you LOVE, you're all wet, you can probably damage my boat," vanity answered.

Sadness was close by so LOVE ask sadess for help. "Sadness, let me go with you..."

"Oh... LOVE, I'm so sad that I prefer to go alone!"

Happiness passed by LOVE too, but he was so happy that he did not listen LOVE called him!

Suddenly, there was a voice, "Come LOVE, I will take you."

It was an elderly.

LOVE became very happy that she even forgot to ask the name of the elderly, when they arrived to the other side.

Love asked knowledge who the elderly was.

It was TIME.

"TIME? But why did TIME help me?"

"TIME helped you because only TIME is capable of understanding you.... LOVE"

初二 - 鱼生 & Doraemon Car 。。。

2010-02-20T00:38:00.008+08:00

初二 as usual, is a day at home, no activities, nothing...

Papa prepared the ingredients for 鱼生, me and sis helped out the process...

Poured all the ingredients in ... Tata ~

Lou ar~

& finally~

Lunch at home lor, after that, den bathed and prepare to go out for movie with dear at MSQ..

Saw this Doraemon car at MSQ carpark...

This fellow must be doraemon fan, arbo 好好的一辆车，干嘛弄到这样？Hmm...

View shot

'Proper shot', lolz~

Caught the movie: Percy Jackson & The Lightning Thief

Dear commented rather similar to Harry Potter lor, the whole thing.

Well, afterall, its directed / produced by Chris Columbus, the very same fellow who did Harry Potter 1 & 2. Effects were stunning, not a bad movie...

Walked around MSQ later, dinner @ Coffee Club Express..

For desserts, we order Fruity Tiramisu, not that fantastic, in fact, lousy lor

Peeps out there, dun ever order this cuz basically it tastes like frozen cake, no trace of tiramisu, or anything, quite tasteless la..

Presentation wise - nice, taste wise, let-down...

Kiang hor... Mai gei kiang...

2010-02-07T00:41:00.002+08:00

After spending 3 yrs tgt, how cud I still be ignorant?

Or am I too stubborn? Or naive? Thinking that probably....

Come to think about it, ya, perhaps so.. & its just wishful thinking on my part..

The reaction I tot I wud get, wud receive, yet all I got was a rude slap to my face..

As the saying goes, being smart is good enuf, dun need to act smart.. How true is that..

Just like how I always tend to speak at the wrong timings, even till this very day...

When I sud have known, sud have sensed it..

算了，its another lesson for me, another run-down, another reminder...

What a disaster, totally, well anyways, on the bright side, it ends up with me...

Next time, just remember...

Oh yeah...

Selfish , Inconsiderate Singaporeans - 不自动!!!

2010-02-04T00:32:00.002+08:00

03 February 2010 - Wednesday

I dun understand how can Singaporeans nowadays just be so rude and inconsiderate?

Is it becuz of their upbringing? Or is it becuz of the way the society is the way it is now?

Such that ple are practically bo chup already??

I guess so..

In this so called nowadays society, it is every man for himself and if you dun be more selfish a bit, 吃亏的只是你!!!

So anyways, I was waiting for the lift at my office building and 1 bad thing about my office building lift is that Lift A has this weird thing that you need to press the close door button at least 5 times before the door will actually get the signal it needs to close..

So anyways, I went in to the lift and this gal who gets off at 4th level is at the door pressing buttons there.. Beside her got this guy and behind this guy is another guy who both goes to 10th level and as for me, I will alight at level 5...

Den the gal pressed the lift door button 2x but the door never closes ..

Everyone just stand there and wait and no1 bother to press the button further

I buay tahan .. I had to reach over since I was standing at the far end of the lift ma.. & proceed to press the door close button continously den the door finally close..

Den I say this lor ...

Ger : Wah lau... Not rushing to work / office meh? The door never close den nobody bothers to press it ar? Dun need to be so selfish / inconsiderate rite?

Everyone in the lift do not dare to look at me but stare down at the floor.. Cept for the gal who glare at me and I dun care, I glare back at her la..

我有讲错吗？没有嘛！那你这样看住我干吗？欠编吗？神经病！有毛病！就去看医生啦！

Sot 1 these ple...

The gal still got the guts to glare at me wen all in the lift are in the wrong cept for me?

Inconsiderate & selfish bunch of Singaporeans nowadays !!!

Come on! WAKE UP!!!

有没有新鲜感？？

2010-02-03T22:22:00.003+08:00

03 February 2010 - Wednesday

Today is a super duper busy day for me in the office.....

By the end of the day, I was so bloody tired, with an aching back, pissed off and very sianz...

那只蟑螂 in the office irritated me again... When I told him to book the Vietnam cargo out and he actually came back to me asking stupid qns :-

Ger : pls book the hcm out
Paul : book with who?
== I tell U guys, wen I saw he ask me book with who, my blood boiled to max ==
== I had to keep telling myself to 冷静，calm down & remain cool, so didnt reply him yet ==
Paul : anyone?
Ger : YA
=== 5 mins later ===
Paul: out liaoz
Ger : K

Like hellow? U think U very newbie ar?

At that bloody point in time, I wanna shout across to him asking whether is it he duno the market rate ar? Vietnam is even much more a simpler cargo than yesterday's Cochin and he got the cheek to ask me such a qn???

有没有搞错???

Sot 的!!!

最不爽的是，at the end of the day, our Yangon agent came back asking us for the slot rates ex Yangon to Singapore as they have prospect shpt ready for 13 Feb sailing at their end.

I am so Bloody Angry lor.. Boss divert the email and asked me to go and check the rates..

Wad the hell ?

I in charge for RF containers, GP 关我什么屁事啊日!!!

Anyways, Boss passed down the email, who am I to reject?

Wah liaoz.. Already sibei 忙 liaoz these 2 months and just 1 word / sentence from him to the boss say he duno how to do or no idea so he gets away scot-free?

Den I wanna ask Boss, is he being fair to the rest of us ?
Is he being fair to my mgr, to me and to Zahari?

We have to cover his work just becuz of his incompetency / incapability.. Har? Wad crap???

If got time tomorrow, I sure wanna go to Boss office to highlight these points to him & tell boss that weekly nowadays, he has been trying to push his work to me... Does he thinks that I am very free? KNS...

& finally, I will add 1 more line for Boss.. That is .. He is still surfing the Internet... FYI!!!!!!

So ya, it was pretty much a super pissed off and duper busy day!

太极拳。。。 From Office 的小强。。。

2010-02-03T00:23:00.003+08:00

02 February 2010 - Tuesday

Today, my boss screamed at that cockroach in office....

GOOD!!! 骂得好!!!

What happen? Hehe :-

Suddenly during working hours, that fellow stood up and went in to the pantry cuz Boss in pantry making tea ma ... Den think he go tell boss that 1 of our JKT agents is making some stupid comments or what.. I'm not exactly sure about the whole story since I was not being cc in the emails mah...

Den Boss & him stepped outta pantry and Boss started screaming at him..

Boss : U just go ahead and talk back to the agent 啦!
Boss : U mean U duno how to go and fight back and tell the agent off for making such an unreasonable request?
Boss : U look at Zahari (our other Malay colleague who has improved leaps by bounds)
Boss : Zahari dun care and dun bother 1.. If we are in the right, why sud we care and be bothered and let our agent run us down like this?!

Den that fellow machiam a bit stunned that Boss actually spoke to him in this manner and tone that he just diam diam and nod his head and went back to his desk, I guess, intending to reply the email...

Boss stepped back out from pantry and tell him straight... Dun reply to that email... Den he gave instructions to Zahari to reply and fire the agent back...

Wah seh! SOLID man!!!

Guess the boss has really lost all patience with him liaoz...

Come on lor, as I have said / mentioned before.. He is not a newbie.. He is oldbie liaoz.. In this line how long le??? Still wanna act stupid ar?

Office already 剩下几只猫而已，& he still wanna act blur?

Wanna 太极 also must act smart to 太极嘛!! Why use 太极 in such a stupid form? 自找的!!

Haha...

So, anyways, this is incident 1 whereby he got fired by the boss 啦!!!

& since Zahari has been made to take over to reply the email from Boss unwillingly when it is none of his biz... We shall just wait and see how long Zahari can stand out and hold on..

Becuz with immediate effect, I am cc-ing Zahari in all my work cuz my assistant mgr told me to make Zahari as my half assistant ma..

With his own work, & having to cover that fellow's shit, 再加上我的工作，let's see how long Zahari can tahan ya... Hahaha

I am so evil-minded~

2nd incident, he kana from me...

Surprisingly, he passed me the t/s list for the week without me having to send the email requesting for it from him... But anyways, this was triggered due to Zahari's side having to probably open a box up to Belawan & Zahari was asking him earlier before if there are any t/s coming in that can act as base for his box... Sadly, nothing lei...

So, den after he passed me the list, I only went to take a look at it like 30 mins later? Cuz busy with some other work mah...

Den I realised he didnt go and book 1 shpt out.. 又不知道又在等什么??

Waiting for me to tell him what to do meh? I already mentioned and told him and repeated numerous times before that this cargo is worthless and just have to throw as 1way lor..

Den I msn him & tell him to do that... :-

Ger : pls book the cochin cargo out
Paul : book with who?
Ger : whoever cheap lo
Paul : ok

===== 5 mins later =====

Paul : ags usd 31
Ger : so ??
Paul : who else can book ?
Ger : U go book basing on whoever's rate you quote to agent la
Paul : Who else cheaper?
Ger : U go find out la
Paul : k

Hello?

As you can see from the above, he is trying to push the work to me again lor..

As always and everytime, he never fails to wanna do that and just wanna 轻轻松松过日子在公司。。。

Oiii... Boss pay U salary is to work ok?! & U take ple salary so jolly well have to do work hor..

Pls earn a daily honest wages from your company...

Already as I recalled the very 1st day I went back to SYT, he had wanna pushed back all the file by passing me back the entire t/s file lor..

I stand firm and told him NO! This is not my work, not my responsibility and not me to be in charge!

Crap la.. I just tell him off lor..

Honestly, if he dun wanna work and/or grow with the company, just bloody hell quit the job la.. If he wanna just everyday come in to surf net and do docs nia, just tell the boss to degrade him and delegate him docs work nia.. Either those or just get outta the company and go elsewhere and stop bothering us with his 'stupidity'!!!

Tomorrow is Wednesday liaoz.. Duno got meeting or not..

Wait & see if boss got fire him more tomorrow in the meeting or not ... Ha

I'm so evil-minded ~

3rd Year Anniversary~

2010-02-03T00:00:00.002+08:00

02 February 2010 - Tuesday

Today marks the 3rd year in which dear & I have been together...

不知不觉，its been 3 years... Like, WOW~

Dear called me as the bus I was in was approaching Aljunied MRT Station this morning... & mentioned to me that, "OH... Its our anniversary date today"!

I replied, "OH... U remembered?"
(Cuz I know that this week is a busy week for dear ma as informed earlier last week since they are rushing a lot of shpts just before the CNY period...)

& so dear replied... "Cuz my HP got reminder"

Chay~ Hahahaha!!!

So, anyways, dear 就 asked... "Can I date U for dinner this evening? Let's go to Blue Mist @ Amara for dinner 啦。"

I okay lor... Anything is fine with me 的。

& so, at around 7pm, we walked over to Blue Mist @ Amara from our office building and had our dinner...

Dear had the sausages & I had the Fish & Chips cuz most of the set meals, I tink I sud abstain from for a while 1st & I tink I have sorta developed a fear for meat as well...

Cuz the week before I fell seriously sick, the last thing I ate was meat and bbq charcoal meat at that. Thou the fault does not lie with the meat but on the milk, somehow, I kinda just developed a phobia over it at this pt in time.. So ya.. Guess its no meat for the time being for me... At least not in those bbq / dark dark forms... Meat in Marcoroni is still acceptable la, cuz it is white in color ma .. Hahahahaha~

I upgraded my drink from their choice of either Coffee / Black Tea to a Mocha Freeze... & all I have to do is top up nia lor.. Just like @ Mac's 啦!

Dear had the usuals, a cup of coffee and requested for milk to go with the coffee..

Truth be told, when I saw them bringing the milk to our table, suddenly, overcome with fear lei... Like its become something I am super afraid of lor.. Den I told dear better faster do wadever you need / want to do with the milk and leave it liaoz.. Dear say still ok cuz the milk is warm lor.. I said I dun care if it is warm / cold / wadever, just faster deal with it..

U can say that 我是真的真的被牛奶给吓倒了!!!

The dinner went pretty well... & the Mocha Freeze is really good..

I told dear that even thou I know that my Mocha Freeze contains milk, but at least I didnt see it in the actual form and in a certain way, it can help me to slowly get rid of my super afraidness now for milk....

Dear paid for the dinner despite me saying to go dutch...

The actual bill came up to be S$38.10 inclusive of service charge...

Quite cheap and affordable lor, I wud say... Definitely worth dining at there and the atmosphere / environment / ambience is quite good...

The day ended pretty well, especially dinner with dear on our anniversary day~

Income Tax - Rude Shock 。。。

2010-02-02T22:52:00.004+08:00

02 February 2010 - Tuesday

As I woke up this morning and before making my way outta the hse to work, I noticed that my pa had placed an envelope from IRAS on my table in my room and so I took it to work with me, so I can read it in the bus, along on the way to work...

As the name suggests, IRAS = Inland Revenue Authority of Singapore = TAX lor..

& so the letter goes:-

Information for New Taxpapers

dear Sir/Madam

You have been identified as a new taxpaper who must file an income tax return from 2010 onwards. To help you understand blah blah blah etc...

I froze! I was Stunned! Shocked! Bewildered! Aghast! Stupefied! Astounded! Baffled! Bemused! Dumbfounded! Dumbstruck!

Like Hello? I'm earning below like wad? 2K & U guys wan me to pay taxes???

Like Hello? My frens are earning like 2K and beyond & they have not been issued any letter to pay income tax!!

Wat is this man?!

So ya, was kinda pissed in the morning over this liaoz lor...

Smsed Clare & Rob to ask if they had received anything for the same or not and they replied no.

Come on lor, to my knowledge, Clare's pay if I not wrong, is higher than mine or so? & she has never filed for income tax!

So why me??? Har???

Rob actually suggested I go and clarify with IRAS for the same ...

Dear asked me to ask my HR if they actually misdeclared or something...

Reached office and told my papa about it. His reply?

Aiya.. IRAS tell you to file, U just file lor, wads the big deal?

The BIG deal IS, my frens are earning more than me & they are not being issued the letter to pay income tax AND I'm earning LESSER than THEM, & YET, I'm being IDENTIFIED as a NEW TAXPAYER!!!

Fine lor.. Papa say pay, so just pay lor.. 乖乖 wait for the package to be mailed to me in March, and file accordingly lor..

Rob asked me at the end of the day while I was on the way home from office if I had called and clarified with IRAS yet?

I replied that I was too bz today and simply had no time to go check it out as yet and Rob said that he had checked that the 1st 20K no need but subsequently, 10K will be needed and it is based on the gross anuual income.

The only reason I can think of is due to my Bonus liaoz lor.. Cuz I took quite a big bonus ma...

So ya, anyways, just pay lor, thou Rob had tell me to go and check and clarify with IRAS 1st..

Anyways thou, whats the use of arguing with them ?

只需要做一个乖乖的 law-abiding citizen 啦!!

CNY shopping~

2010-02-01T22:42:00.004+08:00

30 January 2010 - Saturday

Went for my facial at 10.30 am this morning... Been a long time, about 2 mths since I last went cuz ever since my beautician went back to Msia, I seldom go down liaoz cuz missed my old beautician's touch too much.. Lolz.. Just not that used to the current 1 hey assigned to me as yet la..

Finished my facial at around 12.30pm... Heng didnt take 2.5 hrs tis time round and the beautician commented this time round, my face complexion seems to have improved and I mentioned Im using back some products I was using for sensitive bought from Watson and she commented it cud be this same reason and told me to keep up the good work lor..

Of cuz man.. U know they squeeze ur acne / blackheads out for you how pain or not sia? Haha..

Dear was supposed to go back office to clear some work the same day but too tired liaoz, oversleep so in the end, waiting for me to finish my facial before we head over to Orchard for our free lunch at Borders Bistro cuz dear got the card vouchers from scoring tops in the Diploma in Integrated Logistics Course last year lor..

Anyways, after I finally reached home, bathed, got ready and everything, was supposed to meet dear for lunch at 2.15 的，but in the end, I reached at 3, all the while keeping dear updated about where my whereabouts at the moment so that dear dun need to wait for me too long until tempers flare mah...

When I finally reach Orchard and msg dear, dear tell me only waiting for the bus nia, so ok lor, I went over to Jeric @ Ion to place our hair cut appt on 05 Feb first, before heading over to Wheelock Borders to walk around while waiting for dear.. By about 3.30pm, dear finally arrived and told me that didnt take the bus but took the cab cuz the bus didnt appear at all for the past 25 mins I think and dear waited until very pek chek and flustered under the scorching heat lor..

Dear hates the heat while I am scared of cold..

Heng thing is that, dear already ate lunch at home liaoz, so just have to settle my meal nia lor...

Den we went into Borders Bistro & after flipping thru the menu like for 2 - 3 times, I asked dear if we could switch to another place for lunch instead cuz seems like still got many things I cannot eat as yet...

That's when I kana for no reason...

Wah lau.. 回想，not fair lor!

See below our arguement:-

dear says: At times, really hate you 1 lei.. U duno how to take care of yourself and duno how to gauge things and eat in moderation.. I already tell you, you need to take up some form of exercise and the way your muscle is in the state its in now is due to lack of exercise

dear says: U see la, now you got so many things U cannot even eat, wanna bring you go eat some things at times also so 麻烦。

===== Ger very bewildered here lor ... Diam 1st ... =====

dear says: Go take up some yoga / aerobics / pilate or wad la, go for some form of exercise, its also good for your body... Dun play anymore Cafeworld games la.. Ask you to go swimming, you give the excuse for your hair, tell you to go cycling, also duno you wanna protest this and that, eat things also duno how to agar in moderation, always telling me 1 more, 2 more...

At this point, I flare also liaoz.. Why accuse me of the above things when its not me who started in the first bloody place???

1. Cafeworld - Dear wanna play in the lst place lor, cuz Cailing and the rest are playing ma and it looks all so interesting n dear very lazy to start account with FB, say later much maintain or whatever, so wanna use my account to play it and we shall name it as our Cafe lor..
--> 关我屁事啊!!

2. Swimming - I still have the phobia whereby the last time I went for swimming and I got cramps in the water and the lifeguard had to pull me outta the water and it was so bad later still that I cud not join my frens for dinner but had to take a cab home lor! Mama had to come down and fetch me home from down my block somemore..
--> 起码也要让我驱掉我的恐惧症先嘛!!

3. Cycling - I admit we used to go cycling on Sunday mornings at ECP, but that has since stopped cuz dear ownself say Sunday stay home to save $, or either that, have to iron own clothes and duno do wad else la..
--> 这样又是我的错啦?!

I also dun care lor, 我跟着 flare. Just flare lor.. Wad the hell? Ple 开开心心 come out on Sat wanna take lunch with dear, have fun with dear and go for CNY shopping den dear had to say all of the above! KNS...

After that, I ordered the only thing I cud take and it is Garlic bread and ya, still have to go back and ask dear for permission if I cud take Latte or not den dear give the greenlight lor..

Dear ordered a can of beer - dear's fav "Kilkenny". I noe dear got the craving for this can of beer since Dec last yr liaoz lor, just that no chance to really take it nia due to either supermarkets dun have or we never passed by to go in and buy at all...

The food was served and we ate in silence..

I refused to give in, cuz 我没有错。我不认为我哪里错，除了 the part about at times, I got no agaration la.. But the rest of the 3 points that dear mentioned is totally out lor.. Dear also refused to budge so we just ate in silence until after a while, dear finally uttered or make some comment and I just reply nia lor..

All the while, I refused to look at dear's direction...

Lunch , or sud I call it teabreak? Finished le, so asked for the bill to make payment lor. I told dear not to down the beer so fast, dun wan a drunk person with me at 4+ in the afternoon lor. Dear said its ok, no prob 1, so I left it at that. 5 mins later, I asked dear again, so did the beer cooled you down from the pek chekness of waiting for the bus so long just now and screaming / venting it on me? Dear didnt really comment so I also bo chup..

Payment done le, so I took dear's bottle of mineral water and put into my bag, den headed outta the cafe after the payment of cuz.. Walking towards Far East to get my CNY clothes until dear offered to take my bottle of honey for me lor.. So ok lor, just passed to dear and continued walking...

还好，after a while later when we reached Far East, dear started to hold my hands and talk to me again in a nicer tone la.. So I also relented a bit lor. Still we didnt apologize to each other. I simply refused to and dear being the stubborn kind also refused to and so we left it at that..

Headed straight to Basement towards Purpur~

My 1 and only fav shop at Far East cuz they got the kind of dresses I wan with the type of materials used... Bought 2 dresses for CNY. Initially wanna get 1 nia but cuz they got 20% discount if get both so since I need clothes for both work and casual lor..

Heng ar, got my size lor.. I have really dropped a size since my Sec sch days... My waist also.. Jess must be jealous cuz recalling from previous or the yr before previous we bought jeans at Far East and my size was smaller than hers? Haha..

So anyways, the rest of the day was quite ok liaoz lor ...

After Orchard, we headed over to Suntec/MSQ lor ...

Went to 店小二 for dinner..

Ordered the "Healthy Set" for dinner for 2 pax and changed 1 dish to dear's fav - Fish Maw soup.. Duck really yummy and juicy lor, we took the Ten Wonder Herb 的。

Dear pestered me wanna go dinner there again and initially I said no but then after that I said can, do it for my bday lor.. But need to have more ple so can order more dishes to share becuz dear wanna try the 东坡肉。。。 If the duck is so yummy, dear is really tempted to try the 东坡肉 liaoz...

Ok lor, so my task for dear that evening wen we got home is that dear needs to contact Cailing they all to ask their Mac schedule den we can plan our next dinner at 店小二。。。

Had to rush home to put my Royce choco in the fridge before dashing out to meet my poly mate, Robert to hear his grumblings about work ...

In the end, final reach home time = 12+... Heng ar.. Is meet at Kovan Mac nia, no more bus liaoz, cuz missed last bus still can walk home for me la.. Robert walked me to my lift and den he took cabby home lor ...

By the time I reached home, bathed and everything liaoz, 1.30 le.. Dear called at 1.45 and we chatted for about 1 hr + before I drifted to dreamland at nearly 3am...

Zzzz...

I have to say 1 thing thou... Now that I have let it out, it feels better, esp the part about dear flaring up at me at Borders Bistro...

Sighs... Wad the hell.. Kana like that...

Company D&D - 2010

2010-02-01T22:35:00.003+08:00

29 January 2010 - Friday

This is the day of my company's D&D...

A very bzbzbz day, but heng I am almost fully recovered liaoz, just that still got many food items that I am supposed to be abstaining from and so the entire dinner, I ate super little lor.. Sighs.. Total waste for me la..

Anyways, backtrack a bit, by 6pm, all the gals from the head office head over to M Hotel to change into their gowns and do their makeup but poor me, still doing my work in the office until 6.30pm lor.. Sianz hor?

In case some of you were wondering, how come I didn't bother to change or wadever, its becuz I already wore my outfit from the start of the day since I lazy to bring clothes to change cept that I brought along my makeup stuff so in the end, I just touchup nia lor..

For pics, pls kindly refer to my FB... Hehe.. Cuz pics were taken from using my colleagues' cams and so ya, they uploaded the pics into FB and I am being tagged in them lor.. Hehe..

Took quite a number of pics that nite, 神奇 since Im not 1 of those kind who likes taking pics cuz 我不上镜 at all lor.. 1 common thing that my colleagues said to me is that they will eat my share for me since there are so many items of the food that are of my enemy!

Sighs.. Boring ...

Oh, the only comforting matter is that, I won a Panasonic Fruit Juice Blender / Mixer in the lucky draw?

According to my mgr, it is 1 of the more expensive sponsored items lor.. Haha...

So ya, is that a comfort? Maybe, perhaps bah...

Chinatown walk 。。。

2010-02-01T01:18:00.002+08:00

27 January 2010 - Wednesday

Heng I only late for 5 mins to work this very day becuz anyways, Boss always in early on Wednesdays since he went to 练太极 in the morning lor...

& glad that my appetite is better than past 2 days cuz I haven been eating much ever since last Wednesday.. So ya, its been a week since I last ate a proper meal... Sighs~

& so, its back to work with the basics and routine job again, but hey, its not as if I'm complaining or anything...

My mgr commented to me and my papa that she has noticed a trend within me that every year, wen approaching CNY season, I wud fall really seriously sick kind. To which, I truly agree lor...

Heng ar... On the road to recovery liaoz, means I got like another 2 weeks to abstain and build up my resistance again before embarking on the journey of CNY goodies~ Lolz~

Ard 2pm later, received a sms from 1 of dear's frens asking if wanna meet for dinner at Chinatown and 顺便 go on their yearly routine walk around Chinatown lor..

Actually, I heard the sms come in but due to my bzbz, dear called me and asked if I had seen Hippo's sms or not and I say no, no time yet... Den at lst dear dun wan me to go 1... Cuz I just recovered ma and Chinatown so many ple, so dear 不放心, but I assured dear I am ok, a lot much better liaoz lor, its been a week and if I am still so weak, something must be seriously wrong with me la..

Den I pestered dear to allow me to join in and after a while, dear finally relented..

Yeah~

After work, dear brought home our scooter lst before heading over to Chinatown to wait for me..

Dear's grp of frens already found seats at the hawker and they bought to share a lot of food to which I am being banned from & I cud just eat my lousy bland, super 难吃的粥。 Wah lau... Really lousiest porridge I have ever eaten lor, imagine no taste, super bland, worse than plain water sia... Kns... Pui~

Anyways,

After dinner, we went to walk around Chinatown... Nothing much to really buy but the rest wanna taste Bak Kwa so Cailing went to buy at, er, I forgot which store liaoz .. Haha..

At lst, no Q 1, but after Cailing went to Q, become suddenly a lot of ple liaoz.. Wah lau, machiam we bring in the biz for that shop like that sia~

走着走着，they decided to eventually walk over to Chinatown Point to sit down and chit chat and 顺便 to discuss further about our up and coming tour lor..

So ok, we walked over lor.. Feeling cold, didnt bring along my jacket as didnt expect we will enter any shopping malls ma.. Cailing took hers out and loan it to me.. This woman ar... U guys sud see her luggage everytime she go on holidays... Super small and yet she can really squeeze a lot of clothes and duno wad else inside lor.. Machiam Doraemon bag like that.. Haha.. She got that nick la.. Really must salute and 佩服 her lor.. Hehe..

Left Mac @ Chinatown Point at around 11.15pm.. Dear told me to take cabby home cuz I just recovered nia ma.. I didnt resist cuz I also very tired liaoz lor.. Ha..

Overall, a much better and happy Wednesday, the best days so far the past week...

Feeling better 。。。

2010-02-01T01:17:00.004+08:00

26 January 2010 - Tuesday

Tuesday was a slightly better day at work than Monday itself, at least 我比较有力 lor...

Took all of my work back from my colleague, Zahari and begin to slowly clear all of my pending work on hand, 1 by 1.. Slow & steady lor...

Manage to clear all my work on Tuesday la.. But I stayed back till around 7pm just to clear the final few pieces cuz I dun wanna bring it over to the next day since I wanna concentrate on my other work for the fresh new week mah...

Heng ar.. Papa asked me again how I was feeling today and so I commented that it is definitely better than Monday itself but dead tired.. & still feeling the pain lor..

So, papa say ok, we take cab home again for the evening... Yeah~ So happy..

I doubt I got much strength left for the day anyways...

Pale & Weak day @ work

2010-02-01T01:05:00.003+08:00

25 January 2010 - Monday

Woke up didnt feel like I slept well at all due to the pain resulting from eating the stupid grapes the nite before..

Told mama about it and she said if I wanna go take Mc, she is fine with it lor

Called papa and papa was not a bit happy over it.. In the heat of the moment said some things la..

Den I tell mama nvm, I will just make my way to work lor..

Mama saw me in pain again, told me to stay home and I told her wad papa says and she told me to ignore him cuz health more impt ma..

After that I insist I wanna go to work so she buay tahan me and told me she wans me to sit down and rest for 15 mins lst and see how lst.. If I still in pain and not good, Im to change outta my working attire and go to the doc with her.

By 8.45 am, the pain started to subside and so mama allowed me to go to work

Heng, reach bus stop and the bus arrived and so boarded the bus lor.. Called my mgr and informed I will be super later cuz just boarded the bus cuz still not feeling very well and she cud hear it from my voice and tell me if still not good, dun force myself and just stay at home lor..

I say nvm, its ok, see later how lor.. If really cannot, den take half day go home only mah.. No biggies...

Finally reached office at 9.45 am lor.. My latest ever.. But understandable cuz I sick ma.. No 1 will ever dare to say anything cuz I got a damn solid super good reason lor...

But you know hor, papa and mama and dear called me, each person at least 2x just to check where am I, have I fainted somewhere or something... Kinda comical la... To me, that is.. But appreciate their concern all the same...

So, for lunch, met dear and dear's colleague.. Both commented I look like ghost lor.. No choice la..

My work still being covered by my other colleague, Zahari and I haven finished reading my emails lor... 2.5 days not in office nia already got like 500 emails.. Sianz sia~

Worse, I saw a complain email from 1 of my VIP customers...

Sibei sianz lei and my customer specifically just mentioned about that cockroach service and attitude leaves much to be desired for..

Wah lau.. I sick liaoz still need to go and think of a beautiful email to appease my customer ...

I was so super pissed over it dat I replied my customer and cc to my boss to let him know that a customer complain abou that KNS fellow lor until sibei jia lat jia lat..

F la... Me and my sis feel he wanna Sabo me lor.. & he is obviously jealous over my success and that I managed to revive the HKG account to which he nearly destroyed before my company asked me to go back to salvage the situation ma...

F off lor.. 有本事，直接发挥，不要找我麻烦!!!

Finally end of the day liaoz... Papa asked if I have strength and I just nua at my desk as an answer to him and he suggested we take cabby home.. So happy lor..

I really no more strength liaoz la..

Cannot...

So glad to be home so soon that nite..

Took medication after a little dinner and its off to bed for me~

Road to recovery~

2010-02-01T00:59:00.002+08:00

24 January 2010 - Sunday

Slept until I duno wad time and even papa commented that he knows I slept very well the nite before becuz I looked so peaceful wen I slept and so deeply in sleep..

Yes I did and thou it still kinda hurts, it is a lot way much better than the 3 hellish days~

Again, they bought Mee Tai Mak for me but my appetite haven resumed yet and so my sister ate most of it but hey, at least I ate more than what I ate the past few days lor.. Got improvement la..

At least this day hunger pangs will ask for food thou I still not eating much la..

Spent the rest of the whole day at home..

Dear doing spring cleaning at home.. So we didnt meet lor ...

Den mama went to act smart, tell me to eat some grapes to ease the constipation..

I ate about 5 pcs of grapes and guess wad?

Pain the whole nite again..

Wah lau.. Finally on the road to recovery and yet to happen this again and to think I have no more MC to cover liaoz lor ...

Grrr...

又是一个辛苦的一天。。。

2010-02-01T00:40:00.004+08:00

23 January 2010 - Saturday

Quite another sleepless nite lor.. 当然啦!! I didnt even eat my western medication, the pain how to go away lei??

So anyways, woke at about 4+am... Papa was in my room, watching over me.. I went to the toilet to relieve myself and he asked how I am feeling to which I responded, bad and painful and he fed me with the 2nd round of chinese medication lor..

Painful, restless, sleepless nite.. Sobz!!!

Woke up quite early on Saturday morning lor.. 8+ wakey liaoz... Papa asked if I wanted breakfast and I said yes since I haven had anything really much for the past 2 days...

Mama bought my Mee Tai Mak.. It's good to have food in my mouth and it tastes darn good cuz its so bland... Hahaha...

At that pt in time, I just cud not stand nor take it if it is too fragrant or if something is full of garlic or wadever la.. I will just wanna vomit lor, so I am really thankful for the Mee Tai Mak thou I dun usually like it in the lst place...

Took a little bit of my breakfast only becuz still not much appetite lor.. Den took the 3rd pack of Chinese medication before going back to lie down..

Papa made honey for me becuz I totally cud not stand the plain water since it is so bloody hell bland lor.. Already I got no appetite and U know when U are sick, your mouth alrd bland and you need to take medication and plain water also bland, wah lau.. I tink I vomit lst lor.. Lolz~

So anyways, after that, went to lie down and sleep a bit.. Finally managed to be able to catch some sleep.. Papa tried jostling me outta sleep to take medication but try as I mite, I just cud not wakey..

Too tired from not being able to sleep for the past 2 nites le lor..

Finally wakey at I tink 4+? Wah.. Wad a fruitful sleep, thou it still hurts la..

Waited patiently for dear dear to arrive at my place...

Like very long never see dear lor... Since I fell sick and didnt go to work for 2 days of that week and Sat as well ...

Oh ya, did I mentioned that my papa in order to take care of me, since mama took care of me the previous few days liaoz in the day time , so papa took his turn in the evening?

Anyways, ya, thats what happened and so papa in the end didnt turned up for his work as usual on Sat thou we are on 5 days work week but that is my papa for U cuz he is at times, a real workaholic la..

Coming back from sidetracking, dear dear finally reach my place at abt 6+?

By the, wanna tell dear dun bother coming over liaoz cuz was expecting dear at about 3+ or 4+ but dear only reach 6+, nearly 7 lor.. Was kinda pek chek liaoz.. Wad? Work more impt than me ar? So ya, kinda sianz abt it lor.. Your gf sick so badly and like the work more impt like that.. Haiz .. Anyways drop the case..

I was feeling a bit hungry le so dear went to buy dinner for me..

Before that, dear fed me with the chinese medication lst becuz its time for me to have the final dosage mah..

The dinner that dear bought home for me was not appetising at all and it contains garlic and duno wad else so the moment I smelt it, I just felt like vomitting nia lor..

So, didnt eat much again...

The comforting thing is that dear left my plc at abt 10.30+ lor.. At least can say tat dear got pei me lor.. For quite some time le..

Finally, in the evening before I went to bed, mama asked papa to let me take the western medication since I alrd finished the 4-course of chinese medication liaoz and papa okayed...

Took the medication and viola~

My first ever peaceful, fruitful and beauty sleep since I forgot when.. Like so long ago lor..

Vomitted - 2nd day

2010-02-01T00:13:00.006+08:00

22 January 2010 - Friday

U wud have tot the medication from the hospital wud be much more effective than the local clinic but U wud be dead wrong becuz the whole nite, I was still writhing in pain, thou I did manage to catch a few winks...

Woke in the morning and decided I cannot make it to work lor, cuz my whole face is as pale as a ghost lor ...

Heng I got the MC from the hospital to cover me...

Initially tot wanna go work for at least half a day, to clear my work and stuff and handover but then the pain is just too bad for me to move a single inch lor..

Received super a lot of calls from office regarding my work.. Haiz.. Can my boss just employ 1 assistant for me to buddy my work? I got like 3 - 4 ple from the office calling me for all my different shpts and I was in so much pain, so ya, go figure pls...

Mama bought my some porridge again and after eating about 4 - 5 spoonfuls again, no appetite liaoz and so went to sleep after taking the medication cuz it says after food mah..

2nd day was no better than the day before, thou maybe a really slight small better nia?

Wah lau, I tell U, the naggy pain at the rite side of the stomach is really naggy lor.. Sibei pain la..

Mama saw that I didnt seem to be getting any better and so suggested I visit another doc at the market area who supposedly is quite a smart doc 1...

So ok lor, about 6.30 pm, we made our way down lor.. Mama walked over lst to register for me becuz I was in so much pain that each step I took seems to be draining my strength, my life away from me..

Finally going to reach the clinic soon le, thou a tad distance away still, mama called me and said that doc not on duty tonite and suggest me to visit the other doc a few shops away nia lor, also quite a smart doc la.. Ok lor, went in to register my name and all.. Told the nurse I waiting for my mama to reach lst before we go in to the doc's room tgt..

Mama finally arrived and I'm the only patient in the clinic but duno wad the doc doing inside and my pain seems to be getting worse so mama informed the nurse and immediately, I was whisked inside the doc's room..

Tink I 吓倒 another doc again, cuz I was really really really very very very super super super pale liaoz... Doc asked me the usual qns and all and I told him wad happened the day before at the hosp lor.. He wanna do another urine sample on me and I said ok..

The nurse gave me 2 cups of water but nothing come out .. Cuz I already urinated before leaving the hse earlier ma.. Mama went to buy dinner for papa lst and so left me at the clinic.. Before mama left, 1 of the nurses asked my mama to bring along my test results from the hosp the day before since mama will be back for me later ma ..

After I downed my 3rd cup, I cud feel like my saliva building up liaoz..

来不及，i vomitted at the back of clinic lor.. Didnt manage to reach the toilet in time..

Wah lau.. After the vomitting session, I actually felt a whole lot better and it seems the pain is gone lor ... Machiam the pressure was building up previously at that pt in time and it has been released...

The doc was kinda amazed and he happens to know my specialist doc sia.. He suggested that it could also be that I ate something that didnt agree with the sensitivity of my intestine to which I felt this way but it cud also be that I was stressed over certain things and that cud also be a result of why I felt so much better after vomitting..

So anyways, he gave me some medication again and said that some of them, I really need to finish lor...

Papa and mama met me at the clinic to take me home after that... Sighs... Another 100+ bucks gone but papa paid for me again...

Papa made me take some chinese medication thing lst and tell me dun touch on the western lst becuz he wants the chinese medication to force whatever poisonous items I took or wadever to be purge out from my body lst...

After taking the chinese medicine, I went to lie down on my bed and within about 15 mins, I cud feel the urge to wanna vomit again..

Immediately dash outta bed and called out to mama before heading straight for the sink...

Vomitted about half of my chinese medication out to which papa said its a good sign cuz it means the medication is doing its work..

Wah lau.. I hate to vomit lor, 好辛苦!!

Oh gosh... Its another painful sleepless nite~

Food Poisoning

2010-01-31T23:45:00.005+08:00

21 January 2010 - Thursday

After the lovely birthday celebration for dear on Wednesday, I couldn't sleep the whole nite and was writhing on the bed, tossing and turning lor.. Kept waking up and going to the toilet and my tummy just hurts like hell ...

已经好久没有这么痛的感觉了。

I awoke the same time as my papa and my papa came over to ask how come I'm up so early cuz its barely past 6am nia lor.. I told my pa my tummy 真的很不舒服 and if I take Mc for the day, will he mind?

Althou he wasn't in the least bit happy about it, but he did tell me to call office to inform and hand over my work properly lor...

I went back to bed, trying to sleep a teeny winny bit after to no avail and by 8 am, fully awake and asked my mama to accompany me to the doc lor.. Walk also painful.. Felt like I cud just die on the spot lor...

YAR! It was really THAT painful!!!

So anyways, the doc gave me some medication after I told him I'm actually under a specialist's care 的 and he asked if I wanna have a jab but I declined, tot the medi will work as usual and I will be fine after a whole ma..

谁知道，by ard 1.30pm, the pain got worse becuz morn ate the medi and went to bed a little since it was of drowsy nature lor and so called my mama who was out at market still doing her marketing to come home asap and bring me to the doc again...

Buay tahan.. I wanna take the jab liaoz... Sibei pain lor..

The nurse at the clinic was very surprised to see me again and by then, I was getting very pale le... Heng I'm the lst patient after their lunch hour and so went in to see the doc again

Instead, the doc suggested I go to the hospital for them to take a look since the medication was not working and I seem to be in a lot worser pain than before...

我吓倒!! I asked the doc if it is that necessary to go down to the hosp and he said yes, considering my current situation. Den I asked if I can just take the jab only or not and he said its up to me, but for just in case, he will be writing an open letter for me to present to the hosp should I feel the need to since the jab can dispel the pain for a mere just 4 hrs nia..

He suggest also that if by 3.30, the pain is still recurring, it would be a much wiser choice for me to go down to A&E lor , to which I DID!!!

Mum pestered me to go down 的。

Wah lau.... Made me spent 300 bucks at the hosp for them to supply me medication which my specialist doc is giving me and running blood and urine tests, along with an ultrasound scan.

Becuz the doc pressed on 1 part of the rite side of my stomach and I screamed in pain and I tink I scared him, kinda and den he tot I kana gallbladder infection to which he dun think it is that quite likely since this only occurs in older women lor.. So, anyways, an ultrasound scan was done but there was no stones present nor anything..

Den hor, wah lau.. They can't find my vein lei .. on my both left and rite arms dere then they took my blood from the veins at my hand there... See pic below:-

Sibei pain lor.. Somemore the nurses say cannot take out unless or until the doc discharge me in case they need to draw my blood out again..

My mum very funny lor.. She asked how come I never tell the doc that I already 平时 a bit anemic liaoz den they took so much blood away from me still?? 要死 lor!!

Wah lau.. Mama... I in pain lei .. Dun make me laff can??? Hahaz...

Den dear also another 1.. Say wad?! Say, if doc wans to run this and that test on me, just let them do it.. If doc say I need to be hospitalised, dun fight, just say okay with it... 还加了一句：放心，我不会过去看你的。Kns.. *Bish~

After that, the doc told me all my results are out liaoz and there is nothing wrong that they can detect so they discharged me on the spot lo...

So happy when they finally pulled that thing (above pic) out from my hand.. Eeeee... The needle so long, see liaoz also so scary la!!!

After that, met papa who has already knocked off from work and we went home tgt lor..

The whole day I just had 4 - 5 spoonfuls of porridge den never eat anything le... Cuz tummy still not good and no appetite at all lor..

Took the medicine and tried going to sleep ...

With difficulty ...

Dear's Bday

2010-01-28T22:44:00.002+08:00

20 January 2010 - Wednesday

This is the day that dear dear was born...

20 Jan 1977 and my dear is 30s+ liaoz... 大我6 岁！

So anyways, we both took half day leave on this special day and went for lunch at our fav place at New Harbour @ Tg Pagar.

As usual, dear had the item'sonly and dear's her fav Pork Chops and I wasnt that hungry, in fact, stomach wasnt that good and wanna just go home to slp it off but becuz it is dear's special day, I tell myself I need to 忍住 lor. Dun spoil this special day ma... After flipping thru the menu abt 2x, I finally decided I will have sandwiches instead lor.. So I ordered the Grilled Cheese & Tomatos sandwich...

Glad I ordered this thou. Really yummy!

Too bad guys, didnt take any pics for this hehe...

After lunch, we headed over to MSQ.. Just in time, collect the movie tics and went in for our movie, the "Morgans" show... Paiseh.. Kinda forget about the actual title liaoz... Too long title la.. Not my fault... Hehe ...

Ok la, overall, pretty much as the genre suggest, comedy lor.. Dear laff a lot.. 是好的！Since dear 平时的功作都那么的忙，笑一笑可让 dear 轻松一下是件好事!!

By the time the movie ended, it was around 6.30 liaoz... Got 1 more hour to kill before dinner cuz I made the reservations for at 7.30 ma.. Knowning our usual would be heavy lunch at our fav venue... True enuf, dear told me not hungry yet, so ok nvm, we walked around MSQ lst lor..

As usual, dear walked into Lacoste la.. They got offer! 2nd pc @ 60% discount but 2nd pc must be either equal or of lower price dan the 1st pc la.. Initially wanna buy 的，cuz dear wanted their older batch but sadly no dear's size liaoz so walked outta the shop lor ...

By then and before then, I already dropped a lot of hints to dear liaoz, about where the dinner is at but dear 就是can't get it right. Anyways, is good cuz will be surprise mah.

Aiya.. I am damn klutz also lor.. Always duno my way ard 1.. In the end, after failing to get my bearings, I tell dear the dinner venue is at Esplanade there and asked dear to 带路 la...

原来 the way there is just ard the corner nia... Haiz.. I really need to go 搞好 my bearings a bit... Haha...

As we were walking nearer to esplanade, dear immediately guessed where the dinner location is liaoz... It's at Jang Shou Korean Charcoal BBQ...

Already say liaoz ma... Got dear's favs lor.. Meat, meat and more meat!

We ordered the bbq set since min 2 mah.. Took the famous Beef set - Galbi (Marinated Beef Ribs) along with the pork set - (Paiseh, forgot which pork set we took le) LOLZ~. Dear commented the beef was really very well marinated and I mentioned to dear of cuz becuz they took like duno how many weeks to marinate it lor.. I got do my research 1 ok... Haha...

A very full, & happy dinner for dear dear.. I didn't really eat much cuz by then, my tummy really machiam washing machine inside liaoz.. But I still maintained nonchalent about it. 我真的很会忍!!! Cuz it was since Monday that 我就开始不舒服了，but I didnt bother much about it la..

Oh, before leaving the restaurant, I passed dear a Birthday card... Hehe.. Dear read liaoz , kept grinning from ear to ear lor.. Buay tahan.. Haha... The look on dear's face? Priceless~

Overall, a really wonderful and enjoyable, happy birthday celebration for the chub!!!

The fog has cleared~

2010-01-07T00:46:00.002+08:00

Was feeling kinda confused, lost and quite upset since Sunday till evening time of Wednesday

& thank God, the mist in my head has cleared!

U noe, with reference to the movie "The Mist", of how the fog dissipate at the end of the movie?

Yes, relate it to the 'mist' in my head, enabling to make 1 very important decision in my life, and believing in it, the sincerity and the truth in it...

As thou, previously, my mind was too full of reservations, fear and insecurity, but that all has been thrown outta the window already.

I'm reborn again! A fresh, new and alive person!

Feeling so much happier, heart feels lighter too, as compared to the past 3 days, till Wed that is...

Before signing off, I stumbled upon someone's blog and chanced upon this song by Ronan Keating: When U Say Nothing At All & I just love the lyrics to this song, at this point in time ...

Ronan Keating - When you say nothing at all

It’s amazing how you can speak right to my heart
Without saying a word, you can light up the dark
Try as I may I could never explain
What I hear when you don’t say a thing

The smile on your face lets me know that you need me
There’s a truth in your eyes saying you’ll never leave me
The touch of your hand says you’ll catch me whenever I fall
You say it best.. when you say nothing at all

All day long I can hear people talking out loud
But when you hold me near, you drown out the crowd (the crowd)
Try as they may they can never define
What’s been said between your heart and mine

The smile on your face lets me know that you need me
There’s a truth in your eyes saying you’ll never leave me
The touch of your hand says you’ll catch me whenever I fall
You say it best.. when you say nothing at all

Cleaning Helps !!!

2010-01-06T00:10:00.002+08:00

I just realised this evening that cleaning actually helps 100% in taking your mind off things...

Its no wonder that 金锁 of 还珠格格 cleaned furiously, like there is no tomorrow in I forgot Series 1 or 2... Haha... Cleaning is such a wonderful remedy in aiding one's mind to clear off...

U just clean and clean and the only focus and goal U ever have at that point in time is just to make sure that the spot you are cleaning is clean and spotless...

Wow... I guess I will make cleaning THE thing to do if I ever need to clear my mind off stuff again...

Wad a wonderful tool !

Nice phrases

2010-01-04T23:55:00.004+08:00

Its not easy to find a person whom U love
& who loves you back ...
& is mature enough to hold a relationship
& understand the works of it ...

Love demands a lot of commitment from both parties ...

I love the above 2 phrases / sentences that Jess spoke of while we were chatting during my work today ...

Especially the 1st 1...

So peeps, do treasure your loved ones ok...

Xmas Day shopping。 MOF。 Coffee Club Express。

2009-12-26T16:23:00.016+08:00

25/12/09 - X'mas Day

Woke up around 11+.. Since having slept about 1.30 am the night before..

Proceed to go bathe and get ready to go Orchard for some shopping with dear dear.

Met dear at Orchard MRT, Ion Orchard at about 1.30pm... Proceed to 鹿港小镇 @ Basement 3... Been having cravings for the Taiwan Granny Oyster Mee Sua since 2 weeks back, so dear dear say we go have it on Xmas day.. Hehe..

At lst, could not find the long escalator down to the very basement. Dear got a bit pek chek... Saying how we cud get lost in this mall? Finding a place to eat and got lost?! I reminded dear, I found Ion to be super confusing from the start. Dear said, its not that the mall is confusing, its just 我们不会走而已。

Finally, we found the place liaoz ... 终于啊！哈哈！

Besides the Oyster Mee Sua, we also ordered the original Guitar Duck, we ordered it the 1st time before and it was pretty good and as dear loves duck, hence we ordered it again. Also, we ordered some Tang Hoon dish which they fried it with chili and duno wad. Tastes pretty nice, has a rich aroma as well. Definitely worth ordering! The only dish which super lousy is some glutinous rice thingy. Wah lau... Cannot be compared with Xin Wang 的 lor. Chay~

Finished lunch and off we went for my shopping!

Walked around and decided to drop into G2000. The clothes I wore to work everday are seriously wearing out and I soo needed some new ones.

In the past, dun really like wearing collared clothes cuz feel they get in the way of my hair and I just dislike wearing them. 但是最近却很想把衣橱的做功衣服给换掉。& lately, also feel that I look nicer, more mature? If wear collared clothings. 可能是长大了吧，想要有那种比较成熟的外表。Looking at the current outfits I'm wearing to work, feels like a bit too casual liaoz, dun like...

Anyway, heng, managed to find 1 collared black top and 1 black pants! So lucky! Cuz most of the times wen I go out shopping, intending to buy clothings, I ended up with nothing, unless I'm not particularly shopping for clothes and I will end up buying them. I'm planning to get 2 more black or dark coloured collared top and a black dress if possible, and den I will be done with my office wear shopping. Hehe.. Totally blew a hole in my pocket. Hehe.. Next week to be continued...

After that, we proceeded down to Suntec for dinner. Against our better judgement, we dined at MOF, despite Jess informing that the food totally sux previously. Why? Becuz my poly mate, Robert commented that it is nice.

Robert! 好介绍！难吃死了！简直浪费钱！

Dun see the food presentation very nice, in fact, the food tastes like shit lor.

Dear dear had some stone pot beef rice thingy, feels like eating 'chao tar' rice. I ordered the char siew ramen, machiam eating wan tan noodle soup sia, tastes exactly the same! >.<

We also ordered the Ebi rice ball, and salmon sashimi. Ok la, the only nice food here is Salmon Sashimi lor.. The rest wah lau... & hor, where got ramen sweet sweet 1? Kaoz... Yucks~

See below for the pics of the food ...

The lovely Salmon Sashimi

The sweet tasting ramen & taste-a-like wanton noodle

The hot stone beef rice

Ebi rice ball, which is totally tasteless

I love the little cup of green tea... Cute lei...

Lousy dinner, not satisfied at all. People go for sumptous dinner on xmas day, we have such a lousy dinner serving instead.

Sighs.. Next time should trust Jess 的 tastebud better, at least we are on the same frequency...

Finally, we proceeded to Coffee Club Express at Marina Square.. Sat down there for cakes and drinks. Dear ordered the Irish Coffee while I had Blackforest. Both drinks contains alcohol. As for cakes, dear ordered the Strawberry Shortcake while I had Blueberry Cheese. We both agreed that their cakes 输给 Secret Recipe. Hehe... But the Strawberry Shortcake is not bad la.. Better than the Blueberry Cheese lor..

Before I actually finished my Blackforest, feel like something is not right. Put my hand to my face to find it 'burning', very hot like that. Dear said my face kinda red... Sighs.. Everytime I drink a bit nia 就 like that.. This is the 1st time dear see me like this also.. Wah lau.. Malu~

Sighs... Went to the toilet before going home.. Face flushed liaoz... Gosh... Looks so ugly sia~

Dear says I have to drink somemore, to build up my 'resistance' towards alcoholic drinks. Eh... 不需要。。。 When my face starts flushing, I tend to feel sleepy liaoz... & I look ugly sia... Wonder how I wud behave if I get drunk? Haha.. Duno how much it takes to knock me out since I barely drink anything more mostly.. Lolz...
Anyhows, it was close to 9.45 le, so we proceeded for home lor...

Today, 大收获。。。 & a lovely Xmas Day spent with dear dear...

Our 3rd Xmas le... & more to come...

The Ultimatium 。。。

2009-12-24T00:18:00.002+08:00

Wednesday in the office is our usual weekly meeting...

Had our meeting at around 12.20...

As usual, the ramblings and minor discussion with GM / MGR / the rest of us colleagues... Nothing much le den GM went to ask the Boss in...

Boss started off, not much, went round the table and asked for our individual updates as usual.. Pleasantries / updates in order le, he zoomed in to what he wanna say...

1st, he asked Paul if he is still surfing the Internet... Paul never answer, so Boss proceeded to ask if that fellow is very busy.. Still no answer... Den Boss fire like nobody's biz liaoz...

Boss brought up all the agents' complaints, all the reminders emails, all the jobs he had cocked up, and any other things, all the things, practically everything, even wad happened yesterday about the rates that Boss questioned him about to which he was unable to answer, (See Below Entry), Boss laid it all out on the table today...

The bullets fired today machiam like nobody's biz at all...

After Boss finally said his piece, he asked around if the rest have anything else to add.. My GM spoke up about the export custom clearance permits.. Apparently, he had consolidated a whole month's worth of export permit to be done and passed 1 whole big stack to our GM beginning of the following month when it is supposed to be done and close the file by the end of each shpt...

Again, Boss finished and asked around if anyone has anything else to add.. My MGR said that agents' reminders for docs and cargo status updates is getting more frequent of late and ya, another round of firing...

Fire finished le and Boss asked around again if anyone else wanna add anything else.. I spoke up... & Boss went on with his firing again.. At this point, he 不爽了，so retorted back to Boss. Den my MGR 'retaliated' by saying if anything were to happen on Sat and to solve the issue, just give out our mobile contacts to other forwarders and have it settled via HP.. Anyways, its not as if our HP bill not sponsored by the company...

Boss also mentioned that during weekends, there are always so many calls from the many various forwarders requesting for docs and stuff and he ends up feeling confused and frustrated becuz he has no inkling of anything. Den that fellow say that if that is the case, how come he dun see things like this happening since he does return to office on Sats.. Boss just replied.. Becuz ple called up in the morning, as early as 8+ / 9+ and by the time he gets in, it was already 10+ and warehouse will just be closing in another 1 hrs' time, do you think anyone else wud call up for such else complaints? 废话!!!

Before the meeting wraps, I gave a suggestion to Boss, that is to cut down the time and save more time by sending docs to other forwarders at 1 go while preparing the release order...

Boss was glad that I came up with this suggestion and becuz its also kinda low period now that we can use this time to perfect this practise and brush up on our work...

That fellow just kept mum mostly... 伤痕磊磊。哈! 无话可说了。哈!

Before dismissing us, Boss issusd an ultimatium to that fellow, either he bucks up or he 看着办。 He told that fellow to consider carefully if he wanna grow with the company and start bucking up, and if this is the right job for him...

The meaning is very clear liaoz... Either buckup, or just tender your resignation...

Ultimate sia~
Solid sia~
佩服~ 佩服~

Den after the meeting is lunch ma... After that, he really just worked lor.. But can feel his vibrations very strongly that he is not happy at all 1 lor.. But of cuz, who wud be after getting the attitude from the Boss, in front of all your colleagues present? Den again, he has to go and 反省 why he is getting this treatment, becuz he Totally deserves it!

Oh ya, den I noticed he sent over docs to other forwarders that had been discussed in previous meetings that cannot be sent direct so I went to ask him about it.. He didnt reply me.. Fed up, I went to complain to my MGR.. She commented that is that fellow force her to lay it out all on the table earlier when she had no desire to get involved in this matter at all..

We were both agreeing that that fellow must be super hating us right now, den again, we dun care, cuz we just wanna get the job done and our whole motive is really in the interests of the company!

Anyways, can see that his mind is not on the job anymore la.. If his mentality is that he is staying on in the hope of reaching for the bonus and I know that Boss is aware of that as well, then, Boss should just not give him any bonus at all cuz no point ma.. Mite as well give the bonus to those who deserved it and who really works!

Ha.. Totally satisfied with the meeting today...

Not say I hard hearted to wanna break other rice bowl but 是他自己自找的，怪不了别人。

Chalet 。。。 Stereo Sound 。。。

2009-12-22T20:44:00.002+08:00

17/12/09 - Thursday

Went down to Downtown East for dear's fren 的 chalet... Its a 3D2N chalet and birthday gal 的 birthday is on Friday...

I made Rum & Raisin Chocolate Truffle for them and Hippo is very happy to receive it...

Got positive feedback from them that it is quite good.. 那我就放心了。。 Hehe...

Didn't eat much of the BBQ food becuz I was just recovering from my nasty throat infection... Had super little food and considering I didnt had breakfast the same day and lunch barely finish my food, I was super hungry by the time I got home..

So anyways, BBQ food ma, so I didnt really eat much cuz my throat not that fantastic good yet mah...

By the time went home hor, throat starting to feel the pain again liaoz.. So sianz...

18/12/09 - Friday

Went back to office that morning to settle some of my urgent and impt work.. Dear also went back to the office to settle some pending issues... After that, we going to our fav western place for lunch.. Waited for dear to leave office for wad seemed like eternity... Dear 的 superior sibei kns.. Staff go back to office settle issues on their leave days should be grateful and thankful rite? But no... They are so ungrateful that dear had to shout at them to get the msg across..

Pls lor.. Wad the hell?

Anyways, so waited for dear for a very long time, from hungry status to not hungry liaoz.. Even when dear finally make it to the lunch venue, I was sianz with the food liaoz... Not very keen on it and hence, unable to finish my lunch as well ... Oh wells~ Noon kinda spoiled...

Den, dear had to tell me that forgot to pack towel into the bag cuz there might be a tendency to stay overnight mah... Birthday gal request, so must try to oblige. Bring clothes first lor, if never stay, still ok la.. So, went back to dear's place after lunch to grab the towel..

Supposedly to reach chalet that Friday afternoon, but we ended up reaching at 5+, close to 6pm.. Ha, by then, they are getting ready to start the fire liaoz and 开动 on the BBQ...

Again, didnt eat much cuz throat not so good mah... That makes it 2 days in a row that I didnt complete meals liaoz.. Dear kept passing me food and I just refuse to take anymore, cuz can feel my throat going no good again... In the end, dear passed me potatos instead.. Loads of them, I finished them all.. Nice.. Yum Yum...

& I stayed in the chalet most of the time, cuz the smoke was really getting to me.. So, using the excuse that I wanna watch the tv shows, I just stayed in there, not eating much and not moving much... Haha...

About after 10, the birthday gal Hippo took out her own cake and brought it over to the rest of us ... Sang the birthday song and presented the gifts... Got 2 birthday people in Dec and they celebrated for the other 1 as well.. As they were unwrapping their gifts, we were a bit stunned wen Hippo snatched the other gal's gift, Lizhen's. Tot simi daiji until Hippo said to Pork Chop how come never remove the price tag... Then a lot of 'arguements' here and there... Haha... Sibei funny... If I managed to get the video from dear, will post it up in another entry...

Apparently, the retail store ple had pasted more than 1 price tag on the goods and Pork Chop tot only 1 price tag and never checked properly 就 wrapped the gift liaoz...

Heng, Lizhen didn't see the price tag, so everyone heaved a sign of relief.. Lolz..

No wonder tot how come 无缘无故，Hippo go and snatch Lizhen's gift for wad...

After that, BBQ resumes until 12+... By that time, most were too full to continue eating and too tired to play any games... So, just sitting around, watching tv, and chatting lor.. Den the rain came.. On and off, and we tot wanna go home but the rest of them said got enough space to sleep so we stayed over lor..

Wah lau... By the time everyone got ready to go to bed, it was like 3.30 am liaoz..

Heard scratching of sounds in the room and Hippo asked... Wad is that sound? Pork Chop replied, tink it cud be 老鼠。 Hippo den asked.. Huh, how many ar? Pork Chop replied, Mickey, Minnie and Family.. Wahahahaha... ROL!!!

After the laughter session, tried going to sleep but 就是睡不着。Why? Stereo sia~

Total got like 2 super loud snorings! Sianz.. I kept waking up every half hourly.. As the night goes on, increase to 3 more snores... OMG~ Totally cannot sleep liaoz... By 6.30 am, buay tahan... Went down and sat on the chairs instead.. Caught some winks by dozing off a bit here and there...

By morning, dear asked me how come didnt go back to the room to sleep wen I said I going to the toilet... That was 6.30 am lor.. I just replied.. Too much stereo liaoz.. Cannot sleep..

Haha...

Wasted the opportunity to record all the stereo sia~

Wonder got anymore chances in future or not.. Haha...

冬至快乐。。。The Brunt 。。。

2009-12-22T20:27:00.003+08:00

First of all, wanna wish everyone "冬至快乐"...

Wanna talk about my work today.. Getting in the holiday mood.. So, not much motivation to work, haha ... But I still get my work done, of cause..

Today, Boss walked over to ask Paul some rates thingy... He cud not answer... Really a laughing-stock sia...

Boss : Who are we booking with for Keelung/Kaohsiung shpts?
Paul : Er... Panda Logistics
Boss : How much are we getting?
Paul : .....
Boss : U duno? U mean to say U just book the shpt & U never check the rates but just book?
Paul : ....

Wah seh! Classic sia~

I looked expectantly at boss, waiting for boss to ask me, becuz he always does that after failing to get an answer from him...

But no qns came...

Looking back, I tink I know why Boss didnt ask me... Cuz Boss also knows the rates himself and he is asking as a test for that fellow but too bad, that fellow fail too miserably...

Ha... I'm waiting to see shows, which me and my pa believe will be happening very soon...

Cuz last week, Boss called me and my assistant mgr in to his room to discuss about this fellow's matter and he said he will hold a meeting to further talk about it on 28/12, next Monday..

不是说我要看到他死，只是他自己都不要振作，所以要怪谁呢？

Hmm...

Getting Harsh

2009-12-16T23:39:00.003+08:00

1 day's mc, went back to work, 120 emails to read and they just kept coming!

So much work to be completed and done with... Omg... My mgr say... Give our current position and workload, wanna take 1/2 day also 难。 I sooo agree!

Anyways, that cockroach today come and asked me a very 无聊问题。He asked if I already made the booking for the 1way cargoes that came in last week...

Initially, I wanna reply him "No." I always gave him this kinda 1 word short ans... But today, I too pek chek liaoz, so I replied, "I tot 1way cargoes you in charge?"

Den he diam diam, ownself go and do the booking.

Wah lau.. Expect me to do the work for him ar? Not the 1st time he comes ard asking me about this kinda thing lor.. Lately has always been the case. He dun tink my rubber band can keep stretching lor.. Can snap 1 ok...

Anyways, if he wanna ask me this kinda thing again, I have a ready shoot back down for him.

Just 1 more time and I will tell him,"U wan me to do bkg for 1way cargoes also ar? Then the company hire you to do wad? Sit down and shake leg ar? U wan me to do the bkg on ur behalf? No problem, your pay give me half lor, I do..."

I'm sure he will be too stunned by then to react....

This cant go on la.. Stupid idiotic fat cockroach.. Everyday just sitting down there to surf the net and not doing any real work cept when the boss is around or hovering somewhere near den he does any real work. Come on lor.. Bluff who?

My mgr today also very pek chek with him.. Both of us been complaining to each other the whole day about him.

Sibei pek chek lei!

KNS... Dun wanna work just get outta the company la...

Here I am, here we are, all trying to grab biz and all, and there he is, doing wad? Knocking away and down all our work into the drain..

Wad the heck is he thinking??

Oh ya, I forgot he got the mind of a cockroach...

So ya. wad can a cockroach be thinking??

Go figure...

I wont be giving him anymore face.. In fact, will be going down even harsher on him, as to wad boss is doing to him now.. In fact, he has got the whole office riled up and very pek chek with his attitude liaoz...

So ya, go figure~

生病了。。。

2009-12-15T21:33:00.002+08:00

15/12/09 - Tuesday

生病了。。。已经一个礼拜了。。。从上个星期一到昨天，还没有好到。。。

Last Monday started with a mild sore throat.. Just drank plenty of water lor.. Took some lozenges... Tuesday was ok... Nothing much, so tot the threat had passed... Wednesday went in to office, started sneezing all the way... So went to the company doc.. He gave me 一大堆的药，看了都 sian... Though he did say I dun have to take all of them, only those necessary... Panadol / fever, cough mixture, lozenges and flu.. I only took the lozenges nia.. The rest threw away.. Thursday was better, the sneezing had gone down, sore throat seems ok liaoz, yet again.. Friday slight sore throat again.. Haiz.. Sianz.. Why keep on and off de?

Saturday / Sunday also kept on off, I got drink water lei.. But kept feeling very thirsty and wanted to drink more..

Monday, 14/12/09 woke up and went to work, 觉得有点不大对劲。。。喉咙萨萨的，怎么会这样呢？As the day progresses on, cannot lei, getting harder to talk... Customers and other forwarders say my voice so husky, so sexy.. Wah lau.. Buay tahan liaoz.. Asked my accounts to write me a medical chit to visit the company doc again...

I went at about 2.30pm.... Slightly after lunch...

Impression of doc was not very good, seems impression getting worse from my 1st visit lor..

His face was very red, flushed and I cud smell alcohol.. Seems like he had been drinking? Heavily at it somemore.. I didnt comment la... He asked me wads wrong, I had to fought to get my voice out.. That my throat feels more raw than ever.. He flashed the torchlight at my throat, den says he will give me stronger dosage of medicine.. He also mentioned I got a virus infection.. Ok lor... But, No mention of antibiotics.. I had to ask him for it, then he "oh ya" me and said, ok, he will give me..

I have to ask him for antibiotics?? Its my 2nd visit for god's sake.. If the patient does not recover and have to visit a 2nd time, it means will need antibiotics liaoz ma.. Kaoz.. I have to ask for it?!?!

Returned to office around 3.15pm.. Took my medicine at 3.30pm or so.. By end of work, it seems I wasnt getting better... The lozenges he promised would be stronger and will numb my throat numb my tongue is more like it...

Buay tahan, I went back to my family doc... He examined me and say I got Throat Infection.. Gave me MC for Tuesday and tell me to refrain from talking.. He also told me that if sore throat by the 3rd day not yet recovered, it means antibiotics have to be administered...

Wah seh... Its my first visit to my family doc and I only told him I have had sore throat since last Monday and he said I have to be given antibiotics becuz obviously I was not getting better at all and it has lasted for so long...

Seen the difference?

15/12/09 - Tuesday

Feels so much better being at home today and not talking most of the time.. Its mostly msn for me... Checking office emails from home as well.. Giving 'instructions' to my mgr and colleagues attending my work for me..

Sianz .. By end of the day, I have clocked 120 emails... Just 1 day away from office nia jiu get 120 emails?! Damn sianz sia.. I mostly sift thru just those more impt and eye catching emails.. The rest of the emails, tomorrow I will read.. Planning to go in office earlier than usual.. See if I can wakey or not ...

Blogging right now, my throat feels so much better, thou my voice is still weak.. Flu more or less return again.. Nvm, later go take 1 more round of flu medi, den go to bed.. Tomorrow sud wakey a lot better!

Will be on leave this Friday, dear's fren 的 chalet... It starts from Thursday - Saturday, so non Thursday, me and dear have to go down to join the party.. Just the usual grp, 顺便 for the xmas exchange also... Friday is the day the party gets into full swing, with more people being invited and dear's fren birthday cake cutting... Hehe...

Whats left of this week is just Wed + Thurs, for me to pia my work before I go on leave..

加油。加油。加油。

Hair cut!

2009-12-15T21:19:00.002+08:00

11/12/09 - Friday

Was on half day leave last Friday...

Had made an appt for a hair cut...

Reached the salon at around 2.15pm.... Was 15 mins early as my appt was for 2.30pm...

Sat down and took out "Breaking Dawn" I had borrowed from Jess, to idle my time away while my hair was being done...

I was being shown the color book... Cud not make up my mind on what color I had wanna do... Total loss... Further, dear was not with me cuz at work ma... So lagi no idea...

The head hairstylist came over and asked if I already made up my mind over which color I want? I say no, having a hard time trying to figure it out... He came over and asked wad color I have in mind? I asked him... Of the colors in here, which belongs to Violet Red? I had seen dear's fren's sister done it before and it was pretty... But the stylist told me that it is not very visible until quite some time later.. So I gave up the idea.. Flipping to and fro, the stylist asked if I wanted brown but I said no... Seeing that I'm still very much tuned to the violet red area, he recommended me another color close to it but is more visible. Ok, I took that color!

The reason for me not wanting to choose brown? Well, when the color fades over time, it will eventually turn to brown also.. So, why bother, right? Hehe...

After the color, well, I was quite engrossed in the book to even hear that the stylist had swinged by... Until he held my hair and I went.. OH... Hold on.. I reached for my bag, he held it out for me.. Den he asked, if I had brought a photo for him? I said yes and gave him the picture.

His 1st reaction? Wah, you want to cut until so short ar?

I laughed it off, haha... I said that I want that hairstyle but not so short.. I will be so heartbroken... Becuz the whole salon knows that I love my long tresses... To cut it so short wud be so heartbreaking...

So then, he proceeded to cut my hair for me.. My hair was still wet ma... They didnt blow it dry after the washing of hair... So the hairstylist tied my hair for me behind and snipped it off from there..

Wah... I tell you... The same time he snipped it off, my heart went "piang".... Broken sia... Haha... Like a vase dropped and shattered on the floor... 心好痛 ...

Well, he modified the hairstyle I had chosen for me, adding his own touch and design... The effect is really great! Even dear who saw me aft work commented that my new hairstyle is really pretty and dear dear loves it.. Says it makes me look more mature than before.. Ha..

So then dear went for the hair cut appt in the evening.. I didnt go in with dear but sat outside, reading my book... The gals... Those whom we are more familiar with, told dear that I am very brave to snip my hair off like that... Its been more than 4 yrs since I have had that long hair... Indeed, heart very pain... BUT I wanna have a new look next year... Tired of waiting for my hair to dry and all...

New year. New look. New style.

Keke...

Zahari Speaks Up 。。。 P2 。。。

2009-12-02T22:09:00.003+08:00

Today, Zahari speaks up, again, for the 2nd time!

Zahari says : this Paul... Coloader already advised him change of vessel details and he never update into system
Ger says : it happens all the time

Haha... I was surprised to see Zahari's msn msg popping out on my screen... Tot wad sia~

原来如此。。。

At least Zahari tasted Cockroach 的‘厉害‘! Or else everytime, he will tink that the office is just prejudiced / biased against Cockroach. 现在他才知道某人是真的没有做功的!! 哈哈，幸好还有得救!!

Den I msn Zahari in the morning, asking if it has occured to him that Cockroach may apply Medical Leave tomorrow, Thursday, the day he is supposed to be back on leave?

Zahari say... Oh yeah... That tot hovered in his mind since yesterday!

Den before he went off for the day today, he turned around and commented that perhaps Cockroach may just take 2 days MC instead cuz if he takes 1 day, then he still needs to come back to work on Friday, which is 1 day before the weekends

I immediately say, thanks but no thanks and this better not happen!

Becuz U (Zahari) and I will sure be busy like hell~

& also becuz, I have left a huge bulk of work for him to followup with. Basic I already done... The rest of the background work is left for him...

If he really does miss work tom and the day after, expect tempers to flare not just from me but Zahari as well!

Hmfp !~

Zahari Speaks Up 。。。

2009-12-01T21:49:00.002+08:00

Cockroach is on leave and will be back to office on Thursday.

Everytime there is a long weekend like last week, he will take the chance to go back to Malaysia, go on leave 1 shot continously...

& best part of all? Haiz... He doesn't finishes his work and keep it to the bare minimum before passing it on his colleagues for followup...

His thinking must be... "Aiya... On leave liaoz, care so much for wad? All the shit my colleagues will take care lor.. Boss go after them, no need to bother so much"

屁啊!!

Whenever anyone of us in the office will be on leave, we tend to try clearing most of our work, leaving it to the bare minimum so that our colleagues who will be taking over will not have such a hard time with it, on top of their other work...

After saying so much, the highlight of today's blog entry is the below msn conversation that Zahari had with me earlier today, to which I was caught by supreme surprise...

(Btw, Zahari is the Malay colleague who sits beside Cockroach)

So anyways, our conversation as follows:-

Zahari says : I really try to be good fren but this Paul really make me mad
Zahari says : Seem like many thing never do ... fed up
Ger says : haiz... dun say urself fedup ... mr teo (my pa) also very fedup ... i also fedup...
Ger says : *vomitblood (msn icon)
Zahari says : ye lor...
Ger says : cool... we do our best ok ... :)
Zahari says : yup... wa to do

Since yesterday, Zahari has been very fedup lor, grumbling out aloud...

Cuz yesterday is Monday ma.. Den imagine we just came back from long weekend, super a lot of emails to clear, docs have to submit everywhere, rushing all the shpts... + our docs gal has resigned... We have our own work to do, to clear, to rush, yet have to clear Cockroach's?

Worse... Apparently, Cockroach left behind a whole load of SHIT!!!

Clear 到我们脸青青!!!

English Translation: 缺氧 by 杨丞琳

2009-11-29T22:35:00.006+08:00

Recently very addicted to this song : 缺氧 by 杨丞琳.

Being the curious me, and since my Mandarin ain't that good, I went to find the translation for this song:-

春天慢慢一点点发芽
Spring starts to blossom little by little

快乐开始都有了想像
Happiness starts to have some imagination

城市光合作用的模样
The scene of photosynthesis in the city

幸福开始组装
Happiness starts to assemble

夜里满园的茉莉花香
During the night, the garden fills with the scent of jasmine flowers

月光洒落看不见忧伤
The moonlight sprinkling down, can't see the sadness

旋转木马前那个广场
The square in front of the merry-go-around

爱情开始滋长
Love starts to develop

想你有时会缺氧
Thinking of you, sometimes will become breathless

嘴角不自觉上扬
Corners of my mouth will turn upward unconsciously

这是不是幸福的现象
Is this the signs of happiness?

胸口微微的发烫
There's a little heat in my chest

想你有时会缺氧
Thinking of you, sometimes will become breathless

脸红呼吸不正常
Face turns red, breathing becomes irregular

这是不是幸福的症状
Is this the symptoms of happiness?

不知不觉又缺氧
Unconsciously, I feel breathless again

夜里满园的茉莉花香
During the night, the garden fills with the scent of jasmine flowers

月光洒落看不见忧伤
The moonlight sprinkling down, can't see the sadness

旋转木马前那个广场
The square in front of the merry-go-around

爱情开始滋长
Love starts to develop

想你有时会缺氧
Thinking of you, sometimes will become breathless

脸红呼吸不正常
Face turns red, breathing becomes irregular

这是不是幸福的症状
Is this the symptoms of happiness?

不知不觉又缺氧
Unconsciously, I feel breathless again

无法移动的梦想
A dream that cannot be moved

就算没有人鼓掌
Even if nobody applauds

我也不会受伤
I also will not be hurt

不会稀释的信仰
A belief that will not be diluted

心穿越砖墙在你的身旁
My heart went through the concrete wall, To be by your side

想你有时会缺氧
Thinking of you, sometimes will become breathless

嘴角不自觉上扬
Corners of my mouth will turn upward unconsciously

这是不是幸福的症状
Is this the signs of happiness?

胸口微微的发烫
There's a little heat in my chest

想你有时会缺氧
Thinking of you, sometimes will become breathless

脸红呼吸不正常
Face turns red, breathing becomes irregular

这是不是幸福的症状
Is this the symptoms of happiness?

不知不觉又缺氧
Unconsciously, I feel breathless again

New Moon?

2009-11-29T01:22:00.002+08:00

New Moon posters and trailers are everywhere lately, and whenever I walked past them, or seen the trailers, I wud be reminded of if I will be watching this movie when it premieres on 03 Dec...

So I was pleasantly surprised when dear dear asked me during our conversation this evening if I wanna be watching it and when? I guess dear must have sensed that 我最近开始不开心了，所以。。。

Coming round from the surprise, I found myself telling dear that I have no wish to watch it, given the disappointment I had from watching Twilight last year to which I felt was a waste of $$$...

Dear was thrown into confusion upon hearing my answer and asked me why since when last year I had wanna watch it and dear even remembered my hesitancy to drag dear with me to watch Twilight. & so I explained that the movie and the book differs way too far off and the movie to many of me and my frens was a total flop.

So dear asked me in the end, to please ask any of my frens who managed to catch New Moon if the 2nd series is any better so I can consider if I wanna catch this 2nd series or not...

So, Jess? Will you be watching it? If so, let me know if it is nice or not ...

Tks ...

My Docs Gal Resign

2009-11-27T02:26:00.002+08:00

It is official, I am once again without an official assistant of my own.

It is really damn funny. My assistants either resign, or get transferred out. Is it so darn tough to be my assistant? Why is that that the rest of the ple in the office got a buddy only me do not have? Why har??

But come to think of it, the buddy they assisgned to me either very slow in learning, keep making mistakes despite doing the same thing all over so many times OR, they seriously, and honestly have attitude problem. & not just attitude problem but also attitude retention. On top of that, please add on to being rude, talking back to seniors, insisting that they are right and not in the wrong, and and and for this recent gal? She vents her frustrations on office equipment.

Whenever me and Cockroach give her additional work / docs to do, or teach her new things, she will vent her frustrations out loud. When we speak to her about it, she claims that her pc is very slow and she is having difficulty with it. How true is that? Her pc already gone thru by our IT personnel who has done quite well in managing it to its current state. 就算是这样，also cannot vent your anger on office equipment mah... Haiz...

Venting is 1 thing, boss tell me to teach her to doing my docs so I can advance further, OMG! Teach liaoz den keep making mistakes. Tell her must specify still didnt specify. Billing must do invoice she go do Credit Note to other companies. Point out her mistake and she say I didnt specify anywhere in my booking confirmation. Den I had to shout back saying pls see properly before she will diam diam.

This kinda staff? 不要也罢了。我才不稀罕。。走也是好。起码, 我就不必看到她的脸色。想想看, 我是她的上司, 而她却又这种得 attitude? Thanks but no thanks, 滚远远吧.

So ya, actually last Mon + Tues she came in to work, Tues she went to take MC so went back at half day, citing back problems. She also has some serious back problems that once relaspse or something, she very pale and cannot walk lor.. On top of that, she also has some bad gastric problems so ya, very weak gal... To think she is a mother liaoz and she is still so young, being at 22 yrs ??

So wed and thurs, she was on MC. & on last Fri she was supposed to come in the morning and go off at noon, since she had already applied for half day noon leave on Fri earlier before. But she called in the morn and tell my mgr she had to apply for urgent morn leave, making it that she didnt turn up for work that week, other than Mon + Tues half day...

然后呢, This week 的 Mon morning, she called my mgr and said had to take urgent leave cuz still unwell. But on Tues, there was no pic and no sound from her despite my mgr calling her mobile many times in the morn. Anyways den, she called office after lunch and informed that she has something to tell us and also she is still unwell this week.

After the discussion with my GM and my mgr, I learnt that she tendered her resignation. Reason given was that she is in poor health and since she had decided to go back to sch the next yr, she might as well quit there and there now...

So ya, thats how the story goes...

Sighs... There goes... I'm left with no assistant, once again ...

Blog Entry for 25/11/09

2009-11-27T00:17:00.002+08:00

25/11/09

Story #1

My accounts Stella came over to my work station today, after failing to get any answers from my import dept about 2 invoices sent by my overseas Yangon agent.

Becuz I had some part in that shpt, so I explained to her how come the invoice for the storage charges was from duno which month of 2008 to 13 Feb 2009. & I even verified for her that the container number she showed to me belongs to us. So after that, she came to ask me also about how our Yangon agent derived at the figure for the Storage charges as well as another figure which has not description to match. & for that, I told her I duno already. Becuz for dry containers, is not under my in charge nor control and to which I have no inkling about. & my dear accounts asked me so who is the correct person in charge so she can go check with and I pointed her in the direction of Cockroach.

She den went over to ask him and you know what he tell her? I duno lei. Got this container number meh? I duno anything about this lei. Why you come and ask me? What has it gotta do with me?

I heard their conversation, so then my accounts come back to me but sadly, there is nothing I can help her becuz I'm not the 1 in charge. Den my accounts say, nvm den, she will ask Boss about it tomorrow to see if he knows or not.

26/11/09

My dear accounts gal went to ask boss wen he comes in to the office. & U guys know what my boss say to my accounts gal?

Boss says: U go ask Paul (Cockroach), he will know about it
Stella says: I asked but he say he got no idea
Boss says: What does he mean he got no idea? He is the one in charge of the dry containers and he got no idea? Is he sleeping or wad?
Stella says: Orh... I go check with him again...

Stella came out and walked over to me instead of that Cockroach. Before she even spoke anything, I told her I heard what happened in the room just now, and before she can say anything else again, I told her the boss is right, Cockroach is the one in charge so she really have to check with him cuz I really duno anything.

Den seeing her expression, I discussed with her and said probably she cud go back to the agent and asked them how they came to that figure for the storage charges and also what is the meaning of the other invoice, what it stands for and stuff...

Only den did my dear accounts say ok.. I guess she also didn't wanna go back to asking Cockroach when Boss clearly told her to do so in the room.

Story # 2

25/11/09

My boss came out of his room and walked over to my mgr work desk and they were discussing that biz is slow lately despite the festive season approaching which is supposed to be peak season for shpts but is not.

Den boss casually mentioned to my mgr that since tom she is on leave, has she passed her work to me as yet and she replied yes. Den he turned over to me and said that if I'm too caught up with my work and my mgr's, I can ask my other colleague to help me tie up the loose ends behind.

So I immediately reminded my boss that... Eh... This other colleague will also be on leave the next day and my boss was sincerely stunned.. It totally slipped off his mind that both of them will not be ard the next day and that I have to cover their work as well as my own.

& all this time, I was waiting for him to say the next line and that is to ask that Cockroach to assist me. I waited and waited but that line never came and boss went back to his room after that...

Sighs... I felt that I really have to blog this becuz it is clear from this incident that my boss more or less gave up on Cockroach already only that he haven fully exterminate yet. He has not unleashed his final weapon yet which makes me wonder given the amount of compassion he has, will he ever do so? Or just continue to make the rest of us suffer by having that Cockroach around.

Sighs ...

Bad day @ Work ....

2009-11-27T00:02:00.004+08:00

Eve of Public Holiday - 26/11/09 , Thursday

To start it off, it has been a very busy week.

My Jakarta and Belawan agents machiam gang up 1. In this same week, bomb my emails with enquiries for rates, this and that whereas last week, it was all quiet and nothing much. So ya, was pretty much busy...

It didn't help matters when Thursday, the eve of a public holiday, my manager and my other colleague, who is sorta my assistant also went on leave. With the 2 of them gone, I was so super busy today, covering their work as well as my own.

So ya, what I had wanna blog about is that, I was so damn pissed off with my other colleague, the 1 who is not doing work and surfing the Internet most of the time. We nicknamed him "Cockroach"

This morning received an email from my Pasir Gudang agent, requesting for docs. The email was sent to me and my manager. Since my manager is on leave, I have to be the one to answer it. Being so busy from the moment I stepped in to office, answering calls like nobody biz and 差点都来不及 reply to emails, I direct the email to Cockroach and ask him to check and revert agent.

He saw the email, turned back to me and said... This shipment belongs to Logistics side. So I tell him, ok then, please inform Logistics to send the docs to agent urgently since super short transit from Singapore to Pasir Gudang. He turned around and dun even bother to answer me nor wadever.

I didnt bother and tot hecks~... Later penalty charges or wad, boss question, is he tio and not me lor...

But about 30 mins later, our agent sent another email, this time cc my GM inside lei. I pek chek liaoz, cuz tell him to inform but I dun see him making the calls nor answering that email at all. I gave a call direct to my Logistics office instead and asked the PIC.

U know what the PIC tell me? The gal say that she got tell Cockroach that this shpt is cancelled and that she also got cc the email to him. Den I'm thinking, so why the hell didnt he do anything about it when I already tell him to? What the fish he is waiting for? Sky to drop ar? 有些事情是不能等的。他到底是在干吗？有没有搞错？？

Can I tell him to go to hell?

Speaking of today, the office is really quite skeleton liaoz lor, cuz Boss and GM went out to settle some matters, den my Mgr not ard + my assistant also not ard, so become me and that cockroach in the whole of Export dept and I'm bz up till my neck and wad the heck is he doing? Surfing the net the moment boss step out.

气死我了!!!

Overall, the day has not gone well for me, wad with the happenings at work and den meeting ugly Singaporeans along the way, 简直是踩到鸟屎嘛。 KNS !!!

Oh ya, 1 more incident took place around near end of the day. Cockroach saw me key into the system that I will also be opening a box to Jakarta and so he immediately turned around and asked me if I need those 2 transshipment cargoes to be put into my box and I said yes.

He immediately try to laff it off and say that his box also in need of cargoes and he was planning to put them into his own box instead.

赢了咯!!!

每天在那边 surf the net and not doing any constructive work, 又不去找 cargo. Think wad? Expect the cargoes to fall down from the sky all the time meh?

Anyways, since he said that he wanna put it into his own consol, so it shall be. When boss once again question me how come I'm not able to open the consol box again, I will just tell him the truth. That Cockroach say he got not enough cargoes and wanna put into his own box instead, when boss already clearly say that priority should be given to me.

我就是要整死他。Hmfp!

Oh ya, 1 hilarious thing today is that, boss knowing that I am so bz covering 2 ple's work as well as my own's, he didnt come and disturb nor ask me this nor that today at all. Totally nothing. He only intercom me on whether I already sent the email to ask for the rates yet and I replied no, citing that haven got the chance to send the email yet and from his tone, I can hear that he understands my situation today and he told me not to send but he will intercept to do the sending instead.

I'm so grateful for that sia~

哈哈哈 !!!

Ugly Singaporeans Part 2 - Crazy woman in bus

2009-11-26T23:51:00.002+08:00

2nd Story ....

This evening I was in the feeder bus 113, on my way home from work. I had with me 3 bagfuls of stuff that I bought so ya, was kinda heavy on me if you cud visualise...

So anyways, I was sitting near the window, the inner side of the seat when duno at which bus stop, a woman of either Euriasian or Indian or Malay race sat down beside me...

So when the bus reached my stop and my stop there is always the one and only stop whereby super a lot of ple alights from. I was in position liaoz, waiting for the rest of the people to alight so I can do the same. Seeing that just left the last of few people alighting, I got up and tried to inch my way out and guess what that woman did?

She did nothing! She didnt even bother to move her big butt so I can make my way out. She just sat there, monotonous, thinking that I can just scrape thru.

Come on la... She not skinny lor. So fat and I carrying so many things and yet she didnt bother to make way for me?

Ya, so I finally managed to make my way out and I gave her a look before I tap my card. She saw me giving her the look and she stare back at me. Ok, nvm, I alighted from the bus and turned back towards her again, and you know what that woman did?

She showed me her middle finger.

BLOODY HELL!!!

Can you imagine the nerve of this woman???

This is the 1st time I kana this... I have never been caught in this scenario at all. I was stunned, super caught off guard. Den the bus moved away and she gave me the smug look.

I can't believe how ugly these people are. How ugly they can get nowadays. I tot Singapore is a 'gracious' society? What happen sia?

Althou I dun quite know the meaning of the middle finger and all, but I do know that it is even worse than if people scold bad words at you... Right? So ya, I was so darn pissed off.

What is the world coming to man???

Ugly Singaporeans Part 1 - My Super 'Dao' 邻居

2009-11-26T22:33:00.005+08:00

Lately very fed up with other fellow Singaporeans.

Really dun understand how come people nowadays can be so rude, inconsiderate, proud and having downright ugly behaviours.

Talk about 1 of the neighbours staying at my block, either 1 floor above or down me.

So anyways, the story with this woman is that she is too damn proud, thinks that she is very beautiful.. Eww... *Puke lor...

Every morning whenever I'm waiting for the lift and I hear her coming, I get very sianz. 还没有看到她的人，就知道是她。Why? Becuz her heels make super a very loud click clock sound whenever she walks, damn easy to recognise straight away.

So anyways, the deal with her is that the lift opens its doors, she walks in and stand to the other extreme end, so that the next person who enters the lift after has to be the one who presses the lift buttons.

Told that to my mama and papa the 1st time round when I was getting pek chek with her pattern. They told me to imitate what she did and so I did. For a few mornings, I didnt take the same lift as her, guess she was fed up that no1 is pressing the lift button for her. Tink wad? People her maid ar? She got maid no doubt but other ple not her maid lei. 如果连按电梯的 button 都需要别人 press for her, she seriously got problem, and perhaps she should just tell her maid to escort her down every morning while she wait for her morning bus.

But what got me so super pissed off with her is what happened this week. Tink it was on Tuesday which really got me riled up.

She was already waiting for the lift as I made my way to the lift lobby at my blk. So anyways, I heard the lift door opening and saw her walking towards it liaoz. Den I walked faster and rushed forward lor. She saw me coming when she was inside and the lift door about to close and yet she didnt bother to press the button so that the doors will open once again. Instead just stand at the other extreme end and tink that the door will auto open on its own meh?

I immediately stretch out my hand, and the lift door open cuz got sensor ma... I walked in and hit the lift button as hard as I cud. Just to show her that 我不爽。

Come on la... Why so selfish, so dao, so rude, so inconsiderate and so childish?

几岁了？？

Tink she so pretty and rich and everything. Eww... *Puke lor...

If rich, wont stay in HDB liaoz, go stay condo, terrace, bangalows, or even better, GCB la! Got maid so wad? Got maid 就了不起吗？少臭美。 Take branded bags, wear branded clothings, having branded shoes = rich ar? Oh please... Someone pass me a plastic bag to vomit pls...

2 sides of a coin

2009-11-14T16:43:00.002+08:00

Why is it that looking at 2 sides of a coin is always so conflicting?
- Becuz that is how clearly you can see a situation

Why is is that not everyone can learn to see 2 sides of a coin?
- Becuz the relevation of it 让人痛苦, so its more like they dun wanna do it

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心情沮丧

2009-11-14T15:55:00.002+08:00

Wah... I didn't blog for a month. Didn't mean to, just that didnt felt like there is anything for me to blog about.. 有心无力. Oh yeah...

Life has been pretty much routine and mundane lately... Nothing new, nothing surprising. In fact, I think the correct term is? Boring..

I have been a really guai, boring, unimaginative person lately. Going to work in the morning, returning home at night. Mostly alone by myself, having lonely dinners on Fri / Sat nites and returning home early as well. Ok la, sometimes got meet uncle Robert for dinner on Sat nites la.. But thats about all lor.

Imagine I stayed home weekly for the whole of October? Didn't go anywhere lor. Very sianz, very bored, but just stayed home lor...

Dear dear has been very busy with work... Recently employed an additional gal to help. Just a week ago nia and I sincerely hope and pray that the gal can slowly offload dear dear 的 work in future so dear dear can be relieved of the work duties and progress...

On top of being busy with work, dear dear has been busy painting the house, at home. Refuse my help, refused anyone's help. That's the problem with dear. Always one man operations. Very stubborn in nature. Stubboness at times is NOT a good thing. Especially with what has been going on at work lately. Haiz.. Making 无聊 mistakes.

In view of recent spate of events like this, my mood has been spiraling downwards. In fact, I cried myself to sleep last nite. Felt very sad, very alone, very depress and very lost.

&, I still am...

Hello Kitty Bike

2009-09-28T23:11:00.010+08:00

Can any1 make out anything unusual about the bike from above pic?

Haha... The fact that there is a hello kitty which is visible on the pillion seat.

Den there is also the hello kitty sticker at the front of the shield...

This bike is taken at my place 的 carpark lor...

Must be belonging to a female la, haha.. Arbo why all the hello kitty stickers sia...

Omg.. Hello Kitty fanatic on the loose~

Hype over F1 Race

2009-09-25T23:16:00.004+08:00

Was on Yahoo webpage reading some news when Yahoo! Answers caught my attention with 1 sentence that was posted:-

Are you still excited about this year's F1 race? Why?

Reading from the so many answers that was being posted on 1 full page, I really share the sentiments of the majority who feel that it is all but a big fuss over nothing. Moreover, SG is so small, hosting something big such as this event seems to me really redundant!

I personally like what some answers / comments were being provided, excerpts below :-

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* Despite the recession, many people are still willing to spend big on the F1 race. Singaporeans do have these kind of money to spend.

* As a Singaporean myself, i find this F1 race a big joke on this island.

* It's just another race.

* Whenever some event is hold up in Singapore, there is always something not right about it. I mean that when you compare it to similar sports events to other countries ,lets say we compare it nearby asian countries like Malaysia or Hong Kong, Singapore just have that sterile quality, everything is too dull, controlled, you will not expect anything else to happen other than the sports event itself. Plus, the venue in the race is too small and cramp

* Frankly, its nothing to be excited about this year's F1 race. It just a normal F1 race. Only it is a night race. But no BIG DEAL. Singapore's F1 night race is not a sport at all. It's all about business.

* I think its a waste of time and money just to had it in Singapore.

* Nothing to excited about. It is the goverment that got excited because they profit from the event

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Quite a number of responses were complaining over the fact that due to road closures, city areas are gone be damn crowded which is very irritating.

& * Drum-rolls* for some of the best answers I have seen:-

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** It is funny that a small city can even host a F1 event not mentioning the "prison-like" track and the road closures just makes it more inconvenient to get around..
-> If you cant build a proper track, than don't. Its simple as that.

** Basically its a big con job to suck our money. The top guys in F1 are multi-millionaires. Where did the money come from? From idiots like us who pay hundreds or thousands of dollars to watch funny looking cars going round in circles polluting the enviroment and creating lots of noise.
-> What's the big deal?

** Nope, definitely not! I sat through 3 races last year and I could not see anything! The sound of the engines was awesome though. I rather watch the race on tele!!! Its a waste of money!

** I hope this street race could be taken off Singapore streets, and avoid causing inconveniences to millions of motorists in Singapore, with endless traffic diversions and road closures, and affecting businesses in the vicinity which the public avoid due to the road closures.
-> Please build a proper track and race on the tracks.

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:: 当你在乎一个人的时候 ::

2009-09-25T00:08:00.004+08:00

当你在乎一个人的时候，
你会经常的有事没事地去查看他的QQ上的资料，甚至能背得滚瓜烂熟；

当你在乎一个人的时候，
你会想方设法的从侧面去关注他的一切，包括他的生活和他网上的踪迹；

当你在乎一个人的时候，
你会在上QQ时只要听见有人上线的声音就会马上看看是不是他，否则会坐立不安；

当你在乎一个人的时候，
你会在看见他的QQ上线以后马上让自己的QQ也亮起来，即使你习惯隐身；

当你在乎一个人的时候，
你会为他退去你头像的光亮，即便此时你正光芒四射为众星所捧；

当你在乎一个人的时候，
你会喜欢上听她所喜欢听的歌，学着玩他喜欢的游戏，那种快乐远远大于游戏本身；

当你在乎一个人的时候，
你会把生活中一点点小事都告诉他，即使是没有什么意义和价值；

当你在乎一个人的时候，
你会有意无意的去帮助他，希望他比你好却不想让他知道；

当你在乎一个人的时候，
你会在你拿不定主意的时候去寻求他的意见，然后像听圣旨一样的听从；

当你在乎一个人的时候，
你会时不时的在他面前耍些小性子然后再等他来哄你，即使平时的你从不耍小性子；

当你在乎一个人的时候，
你会在他没有表现得很在乎你的时候感到郁闷甚至生气，虽然你知道你们还只是一般的朋友；

当你在乎一个人的时候，
你会原谅他所做的一切事情，即使是你最不能容忍和曾经发过誓的；

当你在乎一个人的时候，
你会因为他无意中对你的好而感到无比的甜蜜，甚至可以让你开心好几天；

当你在乎一个人的时候，
你会对他的一切都很感兴趣，即使是他写错的字都会铭记不忘；

当你在乎一个人的时候，
你会发觉自己的某些习惯已经慢慢地变得向他的某些习惯靠拢了，而这变化并不是你故意的；

当你在乎一个人的时候，
你会很喜欢跟他在一起的感觉，不管是单独还是和很多人一起，只要有他在就很满足；

当你在乎一个人的时候，
你会在他误会你的时候或者认为你不好的时候，感到世界顿时失去光明，心情也灰灰的；

当你在乎一个人的时候，
你会在登上自己空间的第一时间查看有没有他来过的痕迹，如果有留言那更是开心无比；

当你在乎一个人的时候，
你会不舍得删掉他给你的任何留言，你会时不时拿出来回味一下，自我陶醉一番；

当你在乎一个人的时候，
你会对他所要你帮的任何忙都充满了热情地去做，并且总希望自己做得最好；

当你在乎一个人的时候，
你会对他的一些“无理”要求都欣然地接受，而不去管那需要什么代价。
我爱你日记

:: 爱有多少，付出也要有多少 ::

2009-09-25T00:02:00.005+08:00

爱有多少，付出也要有多少
爱情不是单行道
他(她)的好更不是理所当然
生气时，想想他(她)的可爱
抱怨时，想想他(她)的委屈
冷战时，想想他(她)的温柔
两人懂得付出，爱就会久远....
毕竟，真心相爱并不容易，不要轻言别离
[送心爱的人回家；哪里都顺路!]

How do you feel about yourself?

2009-09-24T23:21:00.002+08:00

I have 2 conversations which I want to share with you.

AA) First Conversation

The first is a dialogue I heard over national radio where people were calling in to express their views on the budget.

Caller - "Hi, I am middle-aged and single. I notice that there is nothing much in the budget for people like."
DJ - "Well if you own a car, then you will get the 8% reduction in road tax.
"Caller - "Well for the others, particular those with families, they get conservancy charges rebate, maid levy discount, ...
"DJ - "BTW, how old are you?"
Caller - "29"
DJ - "29?????? .... You are still very young. You should focus on raising a family of your own."

BB) Second Conversation
I was talking to a man who has just sold his business for a pot of gold. He is lamenting that he still has to sustain his level of commitment to the business he sold while being paid a more than modest DAILY rate. He wishes for more time to smell the roses. "How old are you?," I asked. "58," he said.

My comment
Why does a person in his late twenties feel middle-age? Do many in their twenties feel the same? Have you guys done everything and know so much already to feel middle age? Has the pace of current lifestyle accelerate the depreciation of our youth?

On the other side of the coin, should a 58-year-old stop completely and smell the roses? Well Gorbachev was a "young" man in his fifties when he became President of USSR after being endorsed by a Politburo with people in their 60s and 70s.

Hmm... I am very confused.. Am I young, middle age or very old? More importantly, how do you feel about yourself?

Blogger ok again ?? // Sot Sot Forwarder

2009-09-15T20:34:00.002+08:00

Feeling really pek chek about 1 forwarder today which make me wanna let it all out.

Log into to Blogger hoping I wud see my normal screen and heng ar... Else gona be so damn sianz sia...

So anyways, it is about this other freight forwarder / Renus Logistics in Singapore.

They are so damn childish sia. Yeah well, the word childish just pop out in my mind while I was typing. & darn unreasonable. 又不好好想想一前我们怎么合作的？？我是怎么帮她们的呢？？话说回来，现在的人哪里会想往事？先顾好自己吧！

Yeah, so as the story goes, Renus owe me a lot of cargoes since Jo's time, who has sinced advanced to Sales. A new gal, Van took over la. Whenever Van asked if I have any Manila cargoes to help since they open consolidations to Manila, I wud say no or nothing. 千我货没有还，还要跟我讨货，有没有搞错啊？？

In order we can work again to exchange cargoes, I told Van she needs to return me cargoes 1st lor.

Oh ya, back-track a bit, dun say I 冤枉 Jo la, she got try to return me cargoes, but downright not sincere 的。Ports that can claim back refund, she wud ask for higher than normal refund. Ports that supposed to charge on the ocean freight, she wud request for super low rates and den ask to match destination charges. Come on lor, show us your sincerity man!!!

So anyways, back to topic again, Van tried to return me cargoes to no avail until fine day, which was last August or last July. Den mid August, I happened to be in need of Belawan cargoes and so she gave me 3 volume. Ok, so become I owe her 3 lor. Fine.

Whilst I was on leave last month, my customer made booking of 1 volume to Manila which my ignorant colleague didn't check with me to whom he sud book the cargo with and so ya, missed that opportunity to return this small cargo to Renus.

Nvm, thou I was kinda pissed when I came back la.

Ok, so that was last mid August.

Comes the show today, 15 Sept.

Wow, exactly 1 month later sia... Haha.. 真巧!

So anyways, today I asked that Van if she wans my Vancouver 2 volume for working 3 ways with another forwarder. Of cuz, I gave her the rates that I wan la. They can press my rates so low, I also can do the same to them. So anyways, within 15 mins, she came back to me and asked if I cud work with OOCL Logistics or not. Ok, fine since their rates is quite workable, on top of PSS & GRI.

Den came the best part, I asked that Van since I owe her 3 and now I'm returning her 2, if she can waive off that 1 volume?

Come on la, so many other forwarders to whom I am working with have no probs in the waiving off, of that 1 volume and you know what they come back to me saying?

That, Me, Gerardine is calculative. CALCULATIVE lei!~ 真好笑! What a joke. 哈哈哈哈哈。好想大笑起来哦!!

Anyways, Van being new, asked me got waive off this kinda thing meh ? She never hear before, so ok nvm, I said she cud go ask her senior about it.

She added me in her msn with her senior, Kinyi whom I used to work with also. Sot de. 神经病！
See below for our conversation:-

Kinyi said: Where got such things?
Ger said: So many coloaders out there are practising it. 1 volume nia, later next time I return you more den you gotta owe me again. Why bother wasting time with the 1 volume?
Kinyi said: Which forwarder out there does such things?
Ger said: To name a few, Ocean Bond / Haba-Sped
Kinyi said: I dun think so
Ger said: U can go find out lor ..
Kinyi said: 1 volume nia, U also unable to return meh?
Ger said: it's not a matter of whether able to return or not. Why bother wasting time? Why not make things easier for all of us?
Kinyi said: Last time we owe you, you also never waive for us, we return you 1 to 1 lei (as in 1 volume to 1 volume). Now you request the super low rates for your Vancouver, it is not fair to us lei
Ger said: Tok about last time, your side owe me cargo so long and so much, more than what I am owing you now. Return me cargo time, ask the super high rebates, freight must low and destination charges match, now I owe u is becuz Van give me Belawan at that time, but now I am returning you Vancouver lei, U go compare the value of these 2 ports la.
I was thinking here at this point, I'm just 一牙还牙咯。
Kinyi said: Why U so calculative?
Ger said: Be reasonable la
Kinyi said: No way, we never hear of waiving this kind.
Ger said: Nvm, wadever, forget it, if that is the way you all work
Ger said: I guess it is also dependent on the relationship you have with other forwarders
Ger said: If you treat forwarders the same way as you did to me, its no wonder why other forwarders do not waive even that 1 volume for U.
I purposely 酸 them at this point here ma. For them to 反省咯。
Ger said: Anything lor, since you dun wan waive, no prob, I can return you this 2 volume, the other 1 volume wait till I have your cargo lor.

After that, I went to call a few of the other forwarders I have been working with and true to my confirmation, each of those I called and is on good working relationship confirmed the same thing with me.

Anyways, as I recalled with some other forwarders, they had informed me that this Renus Logistics people is getting from bad to worse and that not only do they owe cargoes for a very long time, 一旦听到别人有她们的货的时候，they will call you up and try to sweetalk you.

Den when they unable to sweetalk and win your cargoes over or to get you to work the cargoes with them, they will ask their senior to 出马，either that, or they will threaten you lor.

1 of my frens in another forwarding company said that there was once she had USA cargoes and happens that Renus need that lot of USA. They called her and talk until machiam they on super good terms with each other when in fact, no lor. It's what they call, 见钱眼开。

Then my fren refuse to work with them for the USA ma, sot de, USA such valuable cargoes ask people to support you meh? 别人也需要这主货来跟对方交谈的咯。 So anyways, Renus couldn't get the cargo and they threaten my fren by saying that they 认识 my fren's manager. My fren went to tell her manager and you know what her manager says?

So what?
有本事放马过来。
有货再谈，没货免谈。
哈哈，笑死人了！！

Den there was another incident whereby Jo (the gal who advanced to Sales liaoz), she needed my lot of Manila cargo for the week since that week was super jia lat, I rem very clearly and every forwarder in the market was suffering.

I had the cargo but I didn't wanna load with her cuz they still owe me cargo ma, den Jo can't get the cargo from me and had her senior, Kinyi call me for help. I told them, can't since my vessel delay and she told me to provide them with my import vessel so they can check since they have the system called Portnet at their end. I refused to give lor, delay means delay, still check for wad? 难道 dun trust me? Well duh! Of cuz, they dun trust ma, haha!

So ya, anyways, in 1 of my calls to another forwarder, Haba-sped, since Haba-Sped and Ocean Bond were the 2 companies I gave to that Kinyi woman who will waive the 1 volume for me, Haba-sped say that either I go even more difficult on them and request the super duper low rates that they can't get anyone in the market to match OR its ok, I return this lot and owe them the balance 1 volume, but pretend to forget about it.

Afterall, Renus Logistics in the market has a 臭 name liaoz.

Not surprising, judging from what just happened today.

What is wrong ??

2009-09-08T00:14:00.001+08:00

I know, it has been quite a while since my last blog!

Wah lau... Not tat I dun wanna blog. I have so many things I wanna be blogging about but!

Blogger is giving me problems. Why do you think I am pending this entry after 12am? Cuz wen I log in normal timings, it gives me a super distorted page till Jess asked me what is this?? once, so ya...

Grrr... Why my blogger like that huh ??

Anyways, guess if I need to blog or wad, it will have to be done ard this timing or so lor...

Haiz...

Carebear 的诞生。。。

2009-08-19T00:32:00.015+08:00

How should I start this entry?

Haha... No need to say anything. A picture paints a thousand words.

Above is the little scooter that dear dear just bought. A transport of our own, for now.

Its name is "Carebear". Hehe... Cute right? Lolz

The decision to 买下 Carebear was made on 09 August at Kallang Leisurepark where there was a roadshow by ASP. Becuz dear will be planning to further studies at Uni-SIM next yr and considering the long journey, Carebear will be able to help cut down a lot of time in the travelling and all.

Carebear was officially born on 13 Aug whereby the guys from ASP called and informed that it is ready for collection, so we made the plans to go down to collect Carebear on 15 August 2009. After the necessary paperwork and all, dear took Carebear for a spin to test-drive that all in order. So ya, I got a ride home after... Hehe... ^^

Anyways, this entry is just about introducing Carebear hehe... =)

Will update more again asap...

Ion Orchard - Swarovski

2009-07-26T00:52:00.016+08:00

Had plans to sleep in today 的! Busy work week since 3 weeks ago? Until my back starting to give me those kinda 酸痛的感觉. A warning sign to me that I need my rest else...

谁知 my body clock had to wake up at 8 am... >.<>

In between catch a few winks here and there, doze off den wakey again, doze and wakey again... Tiring! Den duno wad time, my tpt called me, saying some problems with some cargoes here and there... Ok lor, woke up to help settle, den after that tell me cannot find 1 of the 3 lots of cargoes, duno is it released to some other party liaoz.. Wah lau, give me heart attack sia~ Haha...

At 1+, finally settled, den my tpt call me, confirm all in order liaoz, and he had to add 1 final word which makes me duno wanna laugh or wad... Anyways, he said to me "问题解决了，你现在可以出去了. So funny la...

Den I went to close my eyes for a while, realise my eyes are still very tired... Finally woke up to bathes and get ready at 2? Hmmz.... 真爽，赖床到爽。The power of having the whole house to yourself with your parents away on a trip and your sis gone to work... Haha...

Was about to leave the house at 2.30 when dear called, saying that will meet me at Tiong Bahru later lor ... I okay and proceeded to Chinatown on my own lst..

Went to Chinatown to get a bottle of Fish Oil softgels for dear dear. Dear didnt know 我偷偷的去买给dear dear. Tot I went to Chinatown to see something else. Whew~

Anyways reach le Chinatown, bought the softgel and proceed down to Tiong Bahru. So hungry sia... Didn't have anyting to eat since I woke up so went to grab a burger and a cup of corn soup at Mos Burger. Yummy!

Den dear had to tell me got this voucher for The Yoghurt Place. Buy 1 get 1 free.. So ok lor, dear bought the mixed berry and I chose the strawberry de. Power! I said, eat le tonight sure make big cake in the toilet! Haha!!!

Tiong Bahru nothing much to walk around de, so next stop we proceeded to Ion Orchard!

Suddenly had this tot yesterday that I wanna go walk walk at Ion! Told dear and dear said ok, we shall go today.

The mall is well... In my opinion, I duno how to make my way ard it sia >.<>

So we walked around the mall, loitered around at B2 lst, since its from where we entered from the Orchard MRT station, before we decided to start from the top and slowly make our way down la. So up we went and saw this super market, Three Sixty Market Place.

Dear immediately commented, that everything in there is 3.60 nia... I very fast interrupt, not 360.00 meh? Haha... Given this place being Ion afterall...

We went in, wah! Super a lot of people sia~ 1st thing we saw / caught our attention were the fruits! Heard a lot of ple commenting that those fruits look very much like fakes! I can so agree la.. They really do look fake haha.. But den, they are very fresh! I bought a tub of strawberries, seeing that it is 3.60 nia.. Dear grab a tub of cherries for about the same price range... Walked further in saw that they have peaches and nectarines! We grab some as well...

See below nectarine and strawberries I bought!

Nectarine ! Fresh Strawberries!

They look good! Don't they ? Hehe..

Further into the super market, we saw a very expensive crab sia~ $218.00 bucks! Wah seh! Heard some other people also make the same exclamation as dear... Wah $218.00... So freaking expensive! Hahahah... So funny!

Den we saw some other fruits also sibei expensive! Air flown peaches... 1 costs $18.00, and 2 for $26.00. Big la, but damn damn expensive. Sighs... Dear dear say some other day gona buy home and try it, to see whats so special about it that its so sky high expensive! Lol~

Made our way to the cashier, the 1st item caught our attention and that is dear's cherries! How come 18+ bucks sia? For that tub? Den came my strawberries! $17.12 bucks... We looked at each other, our eyes blink blink... Total bill came up to 50++ bucks, with some drinks we took to quench our thirst...

Ok, nvm, pay lst. Dear got a hunch, walked back to the fruits area and confirmed! 原来不是 3.60 / tub but per grams. >.<>

Got out of Three Sixty Market Place, feeling like we have just been ripped. Indeed we have been ripped! >.<>

Time passes by very fast when we are in this mall, or so I think. Den again, its also becuz by the time we reached here, it was already 5+ le... So ya... Contemplating where to go for our dinner until we passed by Xin Wang HK Cafe. Went in there lor, everywhere else de Q is super horrible la... Xin Wang got the least Q, and fastest moving de!

I had my usual spicy congee minced pork with a cup of hot honey green tea and dear had the spagetthi chicken... The hot honey green tea 苦苦的, honey like not enough lei, so didnt' really enjoy much of it. The congee is the same. Dear de meal also pretty much the same, nothing new.

Next to our table came a couple who ordered some maggie mee style food. The guy was about to finish his meal made 1 comment which me and dear wanna laff and wanna comment also dun dare but just looked at each other.

The guy : I paid 7+ bucks for this plate which tastes like Maggie Mee
The gal : Ok la, I tot it is quite tasty ar.. 蛮好吃的.

Me and dear at that pt in time, nearly wanna turn around and tell both of them, that what they are eating IS indeed Maggie Mee, but we just kept quiet la... Haha... Damn classic lor.. They can't differentiate or know that they ARE in fact eating Maggie meh? This is too hilarious for words!

Finished our dinner le, so walked around the mall somemore to digest digest a bit. Den as we walked past this Malay couple, something the guy said made both of us laugh again.. Haha... Sibei funny la..

Malay guy to his gf : Can we get out of this shopping mall? It is very complicated

Me and dear faster walked further away from them before bursting out into laughter... Hahahahhaha~ This is so so so funny sia~

Ya, I have to admit that to me, it also feels very complicating but to dear, it is not lei... Hmm.. To each his own bah...

Making our way down back to basement to take the train, we passed by Swaroski!

Dear went in and seems to be looking for something. Before I can do something, dear spotted it liaoz and made a purchase for it on the spot faster dan I can say NO to it. Sighs... Dear dear said I buy so many things for dear dear so dear dear also wanna buy something for me... Everytime I protest, dear wud just say tis:" 你可以买给我，为什么我就不可以买东西给你也是呢？ Sighs... Really 拿 dear 没办法!

See below! An apple pendant! Which costs 88 bucks!

In the bag!

Cover

Box

What is this ?

Certificate

Tag

** Drum Rolls **

Very happy with the above gift. Was grinning a bit and got caught by dear who knows that I like it and is stopping dear from buying cuz of the price. Sighs...

But I loved it!!!

People come into your life for a reason

2009-07-25T00:38:00.006+08:00

People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime

When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person

When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed

They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally and spiritually

They may seem like a godsend and they are ...

They are there for the reason you need them to be

Then without any wrong doing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end

Sometimes they die, sometimes they walk away, sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand

What we must realise is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done

They prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on

Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has come to share, grow or learn

They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh

They may teach you something you have never done

They usually give you an unbelivable amount of joy

Believe it, it is for real. But only for a season

LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons, things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation

Your job is to accept the lesson, LOVE the person and put what you have learnt to use in all other relationships and areas of your life

It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant

Thank you for being a part of my life

Whether you were a reason, a season or a lifetime